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Vince's POV, 10th January 2005

Over a week had passed since Nikki's suicide attempt and surprisingly things were better, it was still hard and we were still dealing with the aftermath but Nikki was taking his antidepressants and was due to go back to Doctor Johnson in a couple of days to get his final diagnosis of depression.

Nik was nervous about getting labelled with something but it's for his own good, he can then get proper support from doctors, he doesn't like being vulnerable but sometimes you have to be, it's just how life is.

Nikki had also spoken to the therapist we'd been given the number for, he'd only spoken to her a couple of times but at least he was calling her, they had an in person session next week.

Our communication with one another was also up, it was better than it had been in months, so right now despite the circumstances I was pretty happy, still totally worried sick over Nikki but happy regardless.

Things were slowly looking up, normalcy was still far off but it's a good start.

So today Tommy and Mick we're paying us a visit and we were going to discuss the tour, I know Nikki and I talked about it but the other guys want to run it by him again, they don't want Nikki to do it... I've tried to tell them Nikki won't be persuaded, as I don't want it to turn into an argument which it would.

But Tommy and Mick and insistent so I can't get out of it, I'm kinda stuck in the middle here- I don't want Nikki to tour but I don't want to go against him either because I can see his point of view but at the same time I do agree with Mick and Tommy, it's best if we postpone first few months of the tour, or just put it back completely.

I don't know what to do so I'll just stay out of the conversation as much as possible.

Tommy and Mick should be here any moment, which is why Nikki and I are sat on the couch waiting for them, from what I know Tommy was picking Mick up to save us waiting for someone to arrive.

As Nikki and I sat here in silence, the bassist eventually started talking "Do we have to talk about this, Vin? We already did" Nikki sighed sounding done with the subject of touring before we'd even started.

"Yes, we do... we spoke about it but Tommy and Mick want to get an opinion for themselves"

"Don't they trust anything I say anymore?"

"No, they don't, and they have good reasons for it" I pointed out and Nikki rolled his eyes, looking away from me "Hey, don't get all pissy with me, this wasn't my idea- they only want to make sure you're okay, is that really such a bad thing?"

"Yes because they're gonna try and stop me from performing, from stopping me from doing what I love to do, why can nobody believe that I'm okay?"

"Cause you scared everyone shitless, Nik... people only fuss because they care, it might be annoying under any other circumstances but these ones? You can't tell people not to worry because what you did is serious"

"You think I don't know that?" Nikki snarls and I hold my hands up, telling him I didn't want to fight with him or turn this into an argument, the man sighed and calmed himself down "I'm being an asshole again, aren't I?"