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Vince's POV, 1st January 2005

This new year has started the most horrific way humanly possible, because the second I woke up this morning I remembered first and foremost what Nikki did yesterday, god... no , just no. I've had some shitty New Years in my life, the new year after my car accident with Razzle, the new year after Nikki's overdose worrying over whether he'd go to rehab or not, as well as many others with my having the worst fucking hangovers in all of human history but this one takes the top spot by far.

Telling myself Nikki was completely fine gave me some relief from the rest of the problems but honestly everything was just flipped upside down and nothing could fix that easily.

I'm actually surprised I was allowed to stay here with Nik all night but I guess they didn't want to force me to leave, maybe it's in Nikki's medical records that if possible he shouldn't be left alone or something or maybe Doctor Johnson said something to some of the other medics saying Nikki shouldn't be left alone and that I should be allowed to stay, whatever it was I'm glad about it.

When I woke up, Nikki woke up about five minutes after me and I tried talking to him but he wasn't giving me much, a common occurrence nowadays, but out of all those days him not talking to me hits that little bit harder today.

Nikki had spoke about ten words to me all day, like I predicted yesterday, the full reality of what happened sank in, he hasn't said it but I saw it on his face and in his eyes, it had hit him what he tried to do and I can see it was affecting him but he just wouldn't talk to me which was not the thing he needs to do, he has to talk to me.

Nikki was eventually discharged from hospital at midday, after I was given some spare bandages for Nikki's wrists, a number for a therapist and he was given a prescription for antidepressants and given the first few boxes of pills we were allowed to go, I had to call a cab which was simple enough, luckily I had some spare money in my jacket pocket so could pay for said cab.

Getting driven home was awkward, I wanted to talk to Nikki but I could see he was being a little guarded, so I stayed quiet and would try and talk to him when we're back home not wanting to make a scene in public or to the driver taking us home.

When we got back to the house, Nikki got straight out and went to the front door without a word, I sighed and paid the driver thanking him before getting out myself, closing the car door behind me and following after my boyfriend, I got to the front door myself and got the keys out my jacket unlocking the door and opening the door entering closely followed by Nikki.

The door was then closed by the bassist and I went into the kitchen and got a drink of water, expecting Nikki to follow me but he didn't, I think I heard him head upstairs so after I'd done what I'd set out to do I made the choice to follow Nikki upstairs because I can't leave him alone, I'm not taking that risk.

I walked upstairs as quickly as I could, my mind set on finding where about Nikki had gone too, as I reached the top of the stairs and walked a little further across the hallway I saw Nikki staring blankly into the bathroom.

I furrowed my eyebrows at the sight and moved closer to him, eventually when near to him I gently placed a hand on his shoulder "Nikki-" I start but as soon as I spoke Nikki just shrugged off my hand and walked off with no words heading straight to the bed and laying on it.