Thinking About You

Chapter 8

Scott's POV

I got to Starbucks and walked inside to find Alex. My heart was racing and I felt dizzy as if I was going to be sick.

I spotted Alex at the near back of the Starbucks and walked to him. His back was facing towards me and I hoped he heard my footsteps to turn around luckily he did.

"Scott ... " He said barely above a whisper

"Hey "

He pushed himself out of his chair and immanently wrapped his arms around me. I felt awkward as my arms didn't know where to be placed. It wasn't the same feeling has hugging Mitch , where he would fit perfectly under me like a puzzle piece.

I pulled away awkward and sat down on the other side of the table of Alex.

"Aren't you going to get something to drink ? " Alex said realizing I didn't order

"No I'm fine I just came to talk to you" I said

"What about ?" Alex said wrapping his hands around his cup

" It's about the moving situation " I said placing my hands in between my knees trying to not be fidgety

"Isn't it great I think it would be amazing. We would get to spend more time together "

"Alex here's the thing I can't just leave Mitch alone ... I've been with him for a long time and he's a big part of my life " I said looking deep into Alex's eyes hoping he would understand

His body shifted and his voice became quieter.
"I know he means a lot to you I get it ... I just feel you don't spend enough time with me and that's why I think this move would be great for us"

I moved my hands on to the table and folded them starring at them so I wouldn't have to look at Alex being upset with what I said . It did pain me to see him like this.

"Alex ... Have you even thought how much it is to move into an LA house?" I said starring at my hands

"Well no ... I thought we could figure it out together " He said as he started whispering

I looked up at him and replied
"Don't you think it would be better to have Mitch ? And maybe others to help pay ... right ? Bigger house and we divide up the money "

Alex touched my hands that were on the table folded together. The thought was touching and did make my heart race but this time it felt different.

"I'll think about it ... For you " Alex said with a smile

"Thank you " I said smiling back and beginning to pushing myself out from my chair

"Where you going ? " Alex said starting to get up

" I have to go ... I told Mitch I wouldn't be too long "

I started walking thinking Alex would let me go but he grabbed my arm pushing me back a little.

"Is there something going on you want to tell me ? " Alex said sounding upset as his tone changed

"No I just ... I said I would be back home soon. Nothing to worry " I said touching Alex's upper arm

He relaxed and let my arm go.

"I'm sorry I'll see you soon. " Alex said coming for one more hug

I hugged him quickly and was on my way out of the Starbucks. The only thing was I still didn't tell Alex about Mitch and I and I still didn't chose. I just really hoped Mitch wouldn't be mad that I didn't talk to him about it.

By the time I got home it was almost 6. I felt sick again having to talk to Mitch now. I got up to our floor and walked down the hallway to our apartment. I push the handle realizing Mitch left the door unlocked.

I set my keys down on the counter and closed the door behind me. I could see Mitch from the door that he had fallen asleep on the couch. I didn't want to wake him but wanted to tell him the news at the same time even though it wasn't the greatest news.

I kicked my shoes off and walked to the couch I set one of my hand on his arm giving him a little shake.

"Hey Mitchy wake up I'm back " I said still gently giving him a shake

He moaned and groaned and threw the blanket over his head and turning the other way. I smiled and put my both hands on one of his arms shaking him with a little more force.

"Mitch ! " I said in a joking tone

"I'm up I'm up " he said mumbling under the covers

I laughed to myself and walked to the kitchen to turn on the kettle to make Mitch a coffee.
I heard the sound of Mitch's feet behind me and he took a set at the breakfast bar.

"How did everything go ? " He asked

"Good I guess you could say " I said finishing making Mitch's instant coffee and passing to him across the counter.

"Just good ?" Mitch added taking a sip of his coffee.

I placed my hands on the counters and kept on fidgety with them , constantly looking down to think of what I was going to say.

"Well ... I didn't tell Alex about what happened between you and I. "

" What ?" Mitch said putting his coffee down

"That's what you were suppose to go to talk to him about " He added

My heart started to hurt and I didn't want to fight with Mitch I looked at him trying to tell him I was sorry.

"Mitch I'm sorry I had to talk to him about the house situation and it was a lot on my plate...you have to understand. "

"Understand ? You don't think it's hard on me too ? You're partially cheating on Alex " Mitch said raising his voice

I stood up from leaning from the counter looking at Mitch trying to make him understand.
"What more can I do? I'm trying here" I said only getting more upset at him

" Well try harder and if you don't figure something out soon I'm going to have to leave and find my own place because this is too much and out of hand "
Mitch said pushing his coffee away from him and in anger walking from the kitchen and slammed the door loud and hard from his room

I was now standing in the kitchen alone with a serious problem. One wrong move and everything would fall apart. I mean it was already starting to fall apart and time was ticking away too fast for me to even make up my mind and who my heart even wanted.