Heartache | Jim Moriarty

the first ache

The next day I woke up with a startle because someone was harshly pushing my shoulder. "I swear i will kill you if you don't stop." i mumbled a little slurred. It probably was only eight in the morning, why would they wake me already?

"That's nice but i don'-" i cut him off with a scream and jumped out of my bed, stumpling and falling down to the floor. There was a strange guy inside my bedroom!

"Who the fuck are you?" I yelled but it was followed by a gasp. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to frighten you." The man says but didn't attempt to leave.

I sighed loudly about the pain in my side and tried to get up. But it hurt and when I felt something trickle down my stomach, I knew exactly why it felt so arching.

I fell onto my training supplies. Including my blades and throwing knives.

"Jeezus you're bleeding!" The man stated with a sharp inhale. But his statement just pissed me off a bit more.

"I know, doofus." I mumbled and tried to get up quickly. As soon as I stood I started to sway a little. Gods I hated blood.

"Jim!" I yelled panicked and stumbled out of my room. I just bloody stabbed myself.

"Sebastian!" I tried again, louder this time and when Jim's office door banged open I leaned harshly against the wall. They were in a bad mood.

"Why are you yelling?" Sebastian and Jim asked, or snapped in unison and right in that moment the stranger came out of my room.

Suddenly everyones attention was on him.

"What are you doing in her room?" Jim roared and took a few steps towards us. But he stopped when I slid down the wall.

"Get someone. Just someone." I breathed and propped myself up from the white floor. "Are you bleeding? Why the hell is she bleeding?" He was yelling again and the guy took some distance. This was a mess and I thought Jim would cause a scene or something. But instead he kneeled down next to me and gently tried to explore where the blood was coming from.

"I'll get the first aid kit, Spencer you better get out of the way." Sebastian snapped and I flinched slightly over his aggressive tone. Jim noticed.

"What happened?" Jim asked quietly, helping me to sit up. I just ruined my favourite kimono. I didn't even archive that in the camp.

"He touched me to wake me up, I panicked and fell down. Stabbed myself, four or six blades I don't know." He hummed unhappily but didn't say anything.

When Sebastian came back and started to undress me from my shirt I wanted to complain. How could I always bring myself into situations where I ended up half naked?

"It's cut open and deep, we should probably call someone." Seb mumbled when he tried to clean my skin. Jim was watching him carefully but took out his phone.

"I'm sorry." I said quietly when Jim left. "I always cause new problems."

"It wasn't your fault. Don't apologize for things you didn't do, it was an accident." He added a little pressure to stop the bleeding, but it felt like he ripped it a bit more open. "Sorry, it's pretty nasty."

"This guy, Spencer? I'll definitely stab him once this is over." This made the sniper chuckle but it died down immediately when Jim joined us again.

"Sharly is coming over. Ten minutes." Who the hell was Sharly ?

"Good. I'll carry her downstairs, I've got this." Carrying me ? Urgh, this shit got worse and worse.

Jim went back into his office and Sebastian carried me carefully. I was smearing my blood all over his clothes but he didn't seem to care. Well, I did. I already ruined the floor and wall upstairs.

"How are you feeling?" Sebastian asked once he laid me down on one of the sofas. At least it was black leather and easy to clean.

"Miserable. I'm sorry about yesterday. What I said, I didn't mean it. But I guess it's not the right timing, is it?" I gritted my teeth when I moved, but the smile Sebastian smiled when i apologized made me already feel a bit better. "You were right tho, it was my fault. But not now." I nodded shortly and closed my eyes to breath out. I felt exhausted, not used to being hurt anymore.

"We need replacement for Sparks, I want you to sort it out in the basement. I'll stay with her." Jim said when he walked down the stairs. Sebastian was up in a blink.

"Sure thing boss."

Jim was about to sit down on the table but the ringing of his phone made him jump up again. "That would be your doctor." He joked in a weird tone and rushed to get to the door. Sharly was a doctor. Stupid me, my brain really suffers when my body arches.

".... fell, lost a lot of blood." I heard Jim's voice explain and when I took a glance to the entrance I saw a strictly looking woman walk in. She looked like that kind of doctor everyone was afraid of. "Well then , let's sew your liddle doll together."

"I'm not his fucking doll, do I look like bloody Sally ?" I snapped and glared at her. She turned to look at Jim but the criminal only raised his eyebrows in amusement and turned to leave.

"Apologise..., I'm Sharly, I patch up Morans men if they need it, wasn't expecting a woman in James house."

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It took almost a hour to provide my wounds, but it felt much longer because none of us said a thing. It was mutual disinterest, and I was grateful that she didn't hurry to finish. But the tension grew with every minute.

I was glad when she left.

"Now that we wasted half of the day we can leave. Get your things Moran." Jim ordered as if nothing happened. He acted like he was in a rush now, and to my surprise it didn't bother me. Maybe having the house for my own for some days wouldn't be to bad.

"How many days can my pity party last?" i teased but my laugh turned into a gasp.

"No party, you have to slow down or you can't join your dear Bastian in Wales next week. Plus someone will stay with you until we're back, for protection."

"Joining Seb in Wales? I'm not working for you Jim."

"Oh we both know that's not quiet true. You signed your contract the moment you chose my side." he flashed his triumped dirty smirk at me because he knew he was right. And he probably knew that i talked with Sebastian about it.

"Fine. " i huffed and turned to stare at the ceiling. His amusement was the last thing i needed right now.

"Aw, don't fret." Jim teased quietly because Sebastian came back with two bags. "You know you're the exception. That's why i want you to stay in my room as long as we're gone. I don't like the thought of Michaelsen taking advantage of your injury." with one last smirk he left, followed by Sebastian.

Did he just say that he cares about me and left?