TEMPTATION | JENLISA G!P (COMPLETE)

CH 7

I think I am in a state of denial. This can't be happening. Frozen staring at the kitchen door I barely register Lisa talking to me.

"Jen?... Jennie... Come on let's go and sit down... Jennie please!" She begs and I turn to look up at her, my eyes blurred with unshed tears.

"Why?! Why is this happening to me?" I beg her knowing full well she doesn't have the answer. A stray tear falls and Lisa reaches to brush it away and all of a sudden I don't want her touch. The hypocrisy of the situation isn't lost on me. The overwhelming urge to run is strong.

"Lisa I need some space!"

" i really don't think you should be alone right now
"

" Well it's really none of your concern what I need." I hiss and she looks like I've just slapped her across the face. Heading towards the door I hear her following me, I grab my coat and without turning around I whisper my plea.

"Lisa just give me some time." and i am out the door.

I don't know how long I have been walking but it must have been a while because my fingers feel like ice. Korea in the winter is not to be undertaken lightly and I am thankful I manage to grab a warm jacket in my hast. I am consumed by my thoughts, the evil ones which keep you from falling asleep at night, the one's which you exaggerate to hell. As I walk round the Kim's neighbourhood in Gangwon I am truly stunned by the wealth on show, rows and rows of million dollar mansions, designer stores and boutiques, car dealerships stocked full of vehicles I could only dream of owning. This world is alien to me and I know I will certainly never fit in. Maybe that's why Jisoo is cheating on me, allegedly. Rosé is from the is world, she grew up with money and is comfortable with it. Every time Jisoo bought me a gift I would hestiate about taking it and there was always a fight about who would pay for dinner. I have supported myself my whole life, earned every cent and to relinquish that control to someone is difficult. That's another reason why Lisa and myself would struggle, you know beside the whole sister thing, if I thought the money was an issue with Jisoo it would be 1000 times worse with Ms Billionaire.

I find myself walking across a well kept Green with a stream at the very end I head towards it and sit huddled up on its banks. Looking back on yesterday I can't believe I was so stupid to sleep with Lisa after only knowing her a few hours. I am not that experienced in relationships, Jisoo is my first serious one and the only person I have ever been in love with, but I never had that instant chemistry that I had with Lisa with Jisoo. As soon as our eyes met there was this electricity and I was drawn to her and her danger. I had a pre conceived idea that she was cold and hard, unloving and driven by money but that is not the case. The side I saw of Lisa was the exact opposite, yes I have had a glimpse at how mercurial she can be but when she is playful and smiles it is a joy to behold. But I am not going to leave Jisoo if I am not 100% sure on her sister.

Ha if I leave Jisoo. There is no qualms, if she has been cheating on me with Rosé regardless of what I have done i will leave her this has clearly been going on longer. I will not be made to look like a mug. My roommate and best friend for goodness sake! And right under my nose.

I look out over the stream and gaze at the scene in front of me. A deserted field covered in glittering frost, it's so peaceful and serene whereas my life is quickly turning into a soap opera. The tears spill freely down my cheeks matching the river in front me.

I don't hear her but I can feel her presence. Lisa sits down behind me wrapping her arms around and pulling me back into her chest. I can't control the loud sob that escapes.

" Hush baby. I can't bear seeing you cry.."

This only encourages more tears and she just holds me. I turn and bury my face in her neck and she rocks me gently kissing the top of my head. I don't know what exactly I am crying for; the betrayal of the two most important people in the world to me, the guilt of what I have done to Jisoo, the pain that will almost certainly arise whether that is mine or to the whole Kim family, the sudden loneliness I feel. Whatever it is it sure is cathartic.

After what seem like hours, I finally calm down enough to stop crying and look at Lisa. I see the worry etched on her beautiful face and I can't help my caress hee cheek, leaning into my touch she pressed her lips to my forehead and murmurs.

" I was so worried, I couldn't find you anywhere."

"I'm sorry for being so distant with you earlier, I didn't mean to speak to you the way I did.." I look away ashamed.

" It doesn't matter. I get it. Are you okay?"

I feel my bottom lip trembling again and I take a deep breath in an effort to control my emotions.

" Everything is such a mess Lisa. How could she do this to me! And with Rosé of all people!"

" My sister has never been the sharpest tool in the box Jennie and for her to cheat on you, she must have a screw lose".

I can't help but smile at her. How does she do that, cheer me up when I am feeling so down.

" I don't wanna hurt your family Lisa. What we are doing has the potential to tear you all apart and I couldn't bear that".

"Hey! That's not going to happen ok? I'll make sure of it" She tucks my head under her chin and hugs me tighter.

"What are you going to do about Jisoo and Rosé? "

As if from nowhere I feel this inner strength, like someone a lit the match. The rage is burning up in me and I feel ready for a fight.

" Skin them alive if this is true!" I scoff " I swear to god Lisa if Rosé has done this to me I will rip her a new one!"

I can feel her chest rumble with laughter.

" Who would have thought little Miss Kim is a bit of a firecracker?" I smirk at her. I climb off her lap and help her to stand up.

" Are you ready for this?" I nod and take a deep breath.

" It's now or never." She takes my hand and leads me back across the Green and to the car, determination filling me with every step.

I am on the warpath.