TEMPTATION | JENLISA G!P (COMPLETE)

CH 34

LISA's POV

The day is finally upon us. My wedding day. It's just turned 5am and I am already awake, showered and had an hour in the gym in an effort to calm my nerves. A gruelling session on the treadmill did nothing to soothe me, so I have ended up sitting in my eerily quiet office trying to distract myself with work. My mother, an advocate for tradition, practically kidnapped my wife-to-be last night and held her prisoner at their house. Far away from me. She cut off all communication ties by confiscating her cell phone and laptop which slowly but surely sent me stir crazy, in the end I had to drive over there and try to sneak in like a horny teenage girl. My mother caught me climbing the tresses below the spare room and ordered me home, much to the amusement of my father. The whole scenario would be hilarious if I wasn't so uptight and scared. This apartment was once my sanctuary and place of solace but now without Jennie its barren and unnerving. Our bed was cold and lifeless; there was no passionate love making, no gentle kisses and caresses or words of endearment and support. To say I had a restless night would be an understatement. Every time I thought I was finally drifting off to sleep, those fucking stupid, niggling insecurities reared their ugly heads again. Years of self doubt, loathing and guilt came creeping back and threatened to ruin the best thing that has ever happened to me. I tried to wash away all of those doubts by replacing them with happy memories of Jennie; the day I proposed and she said yes, when she first uttered those three most important words "I love you" and the moment she woke up after the shooting, her beautiful eyes twinkling at me when I thought I would never be privileged to look into them again. I love Jennie more than life itself but I still continue to question if I will ever be enough for her. She deserves so much better than a broken man who has a mountain of issues as tall as Everest. I want so desperately to be the person she needs me to be, a mother our child can be proud of.

My hand reaches for the small piece of paper lying next to the keyboard of my computer. My vows. We decided to write our own a few weeks ago and I have been working on them ever since. This is the fifth draft and I'm still not totally happy with them. This is my chance to truly declare my love and devotion to her and I can't screw this up. I open up the folded paper and skim through, adding little amendments as I go. I am so engrossed I don't hear the small tap on the door; it is only V clearing his throat that alerts me to his presence.

"Sorry V. I was away in my own little world." I apologize and safety tuck my vows into the pocket of my pants.

"It's not a problem Ma'am, I am just here to deliver this". V holds out a white envelope and an uneasy feeling settles in the pit of my stomach. The angle of which he is holding it prevents me from properly seeing who it is from. What if it is from Jennie? It must be who else would be sending me a letter on my wedding day? Oh God I knew this would happen, she has changed her mind and decided to cancel the wedding. One night away from the intensity of our relationship is enough time for her to realize that I am too much hassle, too riddled with issues. I don't blame her; I would sprint away from me too. My heart is beating so fast it may soon rip free from my chest.

With a shaky hand I retrieve the envelope from V, "Who is it from?" The words stick to the back of my throat. Maybe if I can get to her quickly I can convince her to take a chance on me, promise her the universe and beg at her feet. She can't leave me! My entire world revolves around her, Bambam finds this to be incredibly unhealthy but I couldn't give a fuck; she is my air, my sanity and my life.

"It's from the prison" My whole body sags in relief. The adrenaline which was coursing through my veins slowly dwindles. I haven't lost her. I close my eyes and slowly exhale, I was certain Jennue was walking out of my life.

"Miss, are you okay?" I open my eyes to see a concern V. The guy probably thought I was having a breakdown. It is only now that his words sink in "It's from the prison". Dread is the overriding emotion now, fuck today has only just begun but already I am fully strapped on to the roller-coaster. The only people I know who are incarcerated are Alena and Joy. Of course this is the day they decide to get in touch.