The Library Boy {Niam}

Chapter 27

A/N: It took me forever to update. I'm happy I posted the author note earlier with an explination. Real life situation didn't get much better, so I don't know how much I'll be able to write. I'm trying though. I hope you guys enjoy this chapter. 

Niall’s Pov.

Waking up I feel empty. Empty in a way I’ve never felt before. I’ve experienced emptyness before. I’ve experienced it when they told me the cancer was probably going to cost me my life. I’ve experienced it when I had troubles when Liam and when I couldn’t do sports anymore. Right now, my stomach feels empty and not just because I haven’t eaten in hours. It’s empty because there’s no baby or should I say tumor?

“Hey..” It’s Liam’s voice coming from my right. He speaks softly, knowing I’m waking up. I feel like this is all my fault honestly. “H-hey..” I manage to crack out, trying to sit up instantly. “Niall, easy.” Liam says sternly instantly, gently pushing me back. “How are you feeling?” He asks and I decide to answer honestly. “Empty.. You?” “Kinda the same, despite the fact I had nothing removed.” I mumbled.

“Look, I’m really sorry okay? I didn’t know and I didn’t mean for this to happen.. I-“ “It’s not your fault. Stop talking like that.” Liam said, cutting me off. “We’re going to be just fine. We will support each other. I’ve bought medication that they will try it’s hardest to provide the cancer returning. They think the tumor was caused because a couple of bad cells stayed behind which means that your body is not creating cancer again. The chance this will happen again is small, it’s there, but it’s small.” I tear up, unable to help myself and let him hug me, settle down on the bed next to me.

“I’ve contacted the boys about it. I thought they had the right to know.” I nodded, though hoped they wouldn’t visit any time soon. Right now I just wanted to be alone with Liam. Also, I don’t wanna see Zayn. I still haven’t told Liam and right now is definitely not the right moment to go on about such things. When is really? I feel bad hiding it from him. I still feel like Zayn thinks there’s actually going to happen something between us. There isn’t. “Your grandpa visited. He actually left half an hour ago. I promised to send him a text when you woke up, so I’m going to do that now. Do you want anything to eat? I can get you something downstairs. Like fruite or something.” I nod. Despite having had surgery, I’m still the hungry animal I always am.

He pecks my lips before standing up and leaving the room. I look out of the window. The weather is nice. Maybe, if it’s the same tomorrow, I’ll go for a walk outside if I’m allowed too. I have no idea how long I have to stay here.

I grab my phone from the night stand. It’s fully charged, I guess Liam made sure of that. There’s a ton of texts from the guys, especially Zayn. I sigh and decide to read them because what else do I have to do?

Zayn: I heard what happened, are you okay?

Zayn: Will you please call me after the surgery and tell me how it went so I can come visit?

Zayn: I really hope you’re alright, we still need to talk about that kiss. Liam needs to know we’re going to be a couple.

My eyes widened at the last text. What was he thinking? “We’re not going to be together.” I wrote and I was about to send it when I realized it wasn’t exactly a smart idea. He could easily contact Liam out of anger and tell him what happened. I wanted to talk about it to Liam myself, be a honest boyfriend. Despite the fact I was single at the time, I still feel bad for kissing someone else. 

There’s just so much going on right now. I’m scared that Liam ends up drinking again if he finds out about me and Zayn. It’s the last thing we could use right now.

I don’t reply to Harry and Louis who just sent a couple of worried texts. If they tell Zayn I responded to them but not to him he might get suspicious. Plus, he will know I’m awake and probably come to visit. I’m not up for that. So I put my phone away when Liam walks in with fruit and some magazines.

He sighs and settles down next to me on the bed. “Want me to feed you?” He chuckled. “Go ahead..” I giggle softly allowed him to feed me. “Did you talk to the doctor yet?” I ask as Liam nods. “The sugery was a success. You’ll be able to leave in two days if I take good care of you at home. Which I will do. Also, the school called.. You’re going to have to do your senior year over. But that’s okay. It means that for now you don’t have to go to school anymore which I think it’s a good idea. You’ll be able to take your rest and deal with things.” “What about you?” I ask. “What are you going to do after you finish your senior year.” I fear that he will leave and that he won’t be around me all the time. “I don’t know.. Maybe go to college.. Take a year off or become a part of my dad’s company. I don’t want to leave you.” He explained.

I was happy to hear that and smiled weakly. “You’re cute.” “No, I’m manly.” “But sometimes you’re cute.” “Shut it Horan.” “If I do I can’t eat.” I snort as he rolls his eyes playfully. “You’re really a tease at times, you know that right?” “I do. I like it though. I also think that might be why you like me.” “Oh is that so?” “Yes it is.” I giggle poking his arms softly.

I made the decision right then. As soon as I’m out of here and well enough me and Zayn are going to settle somewhere and have a talk. Liam won’t know anything about the kiss. I can tell that he’s having a hard time staying away from alcohol already and our baby turning out to be a tumor was enough of a shock. Zayn has to give up his hopes and I need to convince him to keep his mouth shut.

I just don’t know how I’m going to do that yet.

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