The Library Boy {Niam}

Chapter 24

Niall's Pov.

Harry stayed at my place last night. I didn’t have the heart to send him home. The boy was so upset. I know it’s a horrible feeling you get when you get dumped. As I watched Harry sleep last night I texted with Liam wondering what I could do. My idea of going there and try to talk to him sounded good according to my boyfriend, so that’s what I’m going to do.

I walk over to the hallway and eye Harry’s sleeping figure. His long skinny body. He’s actually quite skinny. I never noticed it until now.

I walk to Louis’ place soon enough. I’m feeling rather well today and let’s face it; it’s been a long time since I managed to walk for so long all by myself. The weather has only gotten colder lately. It’s okay though. I can’t wait for snow to fall from the sky. Why? Because I forgot what it felt like to run through it and have a snowball fight.

I reach Louis’ house and walk to the door, only to ring the bell and wrap my arms around myself as I wait. It doesn’t take long before Louis opens the door, looking like he just got out of bed seeing he’s wearing a oversized t-shirt and sweatpants. He looks at me frowning. “Heey Niall, what are you doing here?” “Uhm..” God, what should I say? I mean I should properly say the right things before I make things even worse. “Can I talk to you for a bit?” Louis seems a bit hesitant, but eventually nods and steps aside to let me in.

I’m suprised to see he’s home alone, considering it’s 10 in the morning and well, he told me how his sisters always tend to wake him up, which annoys him. “So.. What’s up?” He questions. “Well, it’s about Harry.” He instantly appears annoyed. “I’m sorry Niall. I’m not really in for talking about him.” “And why’s that?” My reply might have been a been a bit too fast and sharp, but I can’t believe he’s shrugging it off like this.

“Because I’m done with the situation.” “And why’s that?” Same question, I hope I get a better answer. “Because it’s never good enough for Harry, Niall.” I from, not understanding what he means.

“What’s never good enough for him?” “Everything. Whatever I say, do, the sex even.” Okay, maybe that’s too many details. “He doesn’t even want to have sex me anymore. All of the sudden. And don’t get me wrong, that’s not what it’s all about for me, but it’s a part of a relationship and now he refuses to even let me touch him. That says something right? I mean come on.” He might have a point there. I don’t really get it either. Why would someone randomly decide not to have sex anymore with their partner. I’ll ask Harry… Without making it akward I hope. 

“Louis, he’s beyond upset. I swear, he does care and he probably has an explination for his behavior. Just hear him out.” “I did that before and then it happend again.” Louis sighed. “What happend again?” I ask, once again confused. Why can’t both of them just be clear?

Oh well, this is probably why they fit together so well.

Which is why I’m trying to get them back together.

Louis sighed and gestures me to sit down. “Look, Harry is… Insecure. He doesn’t show it but it really is a-“ “Then why did you dump him?” I can’t help it but as kit straight away. “Look, if you’re not going to let me finish you might as well leave now.” “Sorry.” I mutter.

“So, as I said he’s insecure. And it took a while before I could like, kiss him and touch him, which was completely fine as we just took our time. We went further bit by bit and he eventually was comfortable with the real deal as he eventually suddenly didn’t want to anymore. He didn’t really want me close to him, he wouldn’t let me touch him and with that I mean just hugging him or caressing his cheek. Then eventually I could again, but sex was only allowed with the light outs for some reason and now three weeks ago, I suddenly couldn’t anymore. And after we had an different opinion on the whole telling Liam about the baby thing he got mad at me and ever since then he’s barely been at home, texted me, called me or even talked to me if he was home. For your information, when Liam stays with you I basically stay with him at Liam’s house, which I guess is also his..” He mutters, shrugging weakly. “I tried to make him tell me what’s wrong but he just won’t. I can’t just constantly keep wondering what I did wrong. Also, I’m not going to waste more time together with someone who’s basically ignoring me.”