The way you should be loved

Chapter Thirty Three

*warning sexual content*

Something is stopping me from slapping him or even kneeing him in his groin. He is stronger than me. He isn't nasty. He isn't forceful. He is just acting like I'm his. Like we were before he went to travel. Like we never parted. He leans towards me and his lips meet mine. Nothing malice in his kiss either just gentle and sweet. Jordan brings a hand down from my cheek to my waist pulling me closer towards him. I should stop it like last time but this time I bring myself closer and wrap my arms around his neck. Just like we never parted. OMG, what am I doing? I feel his arousal swell in his jeans and I try to swallow the desire I feel. I can't feel like that. I shouldn't feel like we should be ripping each other's clothes off and having sex on his desk. Oh crap. That's when I felt his hand move from my waist to my leg. Still moving up my leg and under my skirt. He smiles against my lips as he does it. Then he pushes his tongue in and deepens the kiss.
" I better get those contracts done" as I finally push him away from me.

In the morning I woke up in the arms of Jon. I wonder when he got in. He was still asleep next to me with his head buried into my neck. And this is how every morning was like. I carried on like it never happened those two times that Jordan kissed me. Jon doesn't need to know then it won't hurt us, hurt him. I know it going to hurt someone in the end and I know it won't be me. It would be one of them. I got up every morning went to work and then home to Jon. But still nowhere near a date for the wedding. That's what I did until the unthinkable happened...

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The first time I was unfaithful we had sex in his office. We have already exchanged kisses. The first time I pushed him away and ran but the second time I wanted it too. Well, it happened when he called me into his office to work on some letters and design. He notices me wearing a skirt. He licks his lips at me. I don't see it thinking nothing of it. It was a game he was playing since he came back. When we did, we had sex like we never were apart. It was just like it was last year before he left. I should have never let it happen but it did.

I just walked into his office when he jumped me by the door kissing me. I just about got through the door. I have missed his kisses. They always did something to me like now. I am ready for the next step. Jordan kicks the door shut and locks while he was attacking my lips with his kisses. I can feel he is ready as he is pressed against me. It twitches against my leg. The ache between my legs is waking up because of it. My body started to remember the old days. It felt like I was still going out with him and engaged to his brother. It was like old times.

"I miss you. I need you now".

"Mmmm".

He kissed me with more passion and want. I opened my mouth and our tongues were soon battling each other. His kisses are so more different to Jon's. They have more power more desire, more passionate, more sexual. They make you go funny at the knees. I wrap my arms around his neck as he then lifts me up by my waist and I then wrap my legs around his waist. He kisses me harder and deeper by pushing me up against the wall. We spent a good time in that position pinned up against the wall. Passionately kissing each other until we can't breathe again. He broke the kiss and was looking into my eyes. I was wondering what he was thinking and what was going to happen next. Oh, I knew what was going to happen next. I could feel it in his pants. Feel it growing in his pants. He still had me pressed hard against the wall. He leans his head against my forehead.

"I need you. I want you. I know you want me. I can feel it".

"I am engaged to your brother. This is wrong. We shouldn't be like this".

"You may be engaged to my brother. But you can't fix a date for the wedding. Mainly cos you still love me or you wouldn't be there now in this position".