The way you should be loved

Chapter Thirty Four

It was Sunday morning Jon and I was sitting at his parent's kitchen table going through wedding stuff. All over the table were brochures ideas, and freebies. I can't fix a date let alone wedding ideas. Jon's mom wants to help us throw out ideas. I can't decide on a spring or summer wedding.

You can't fix a date cos you still love me

All I can hear is Jordan. And the annoying thing is he has just walked through into the kitchen.

"All I want to do is eat some breakfast and all I see is wedding crap all over the table".

"You're just jealous cos you haven't got what I got".

"Oh I had that model. But it will be back to me when bored with you". Jordan comes over to the table and looks at some of the ideas for invitations and table placing labels. "No wrong font . Wrong color. Ooh I like pastel yellow it brightens it up a bit like spring. But not with that font I'd use old fashion style of writing italic. I know the best marketing".

"What like you got to fire your whole team?".

"At least I'm making a difference as a manager".

"You can't be. You're not been there long and you're too young".

"I'm 22 and I have a really good head for business. I am the project in question for the company. I will be the company". He stands there staring at Jon.

"You are full of crap Jordan".

"You're just jealous," he says now staring at me. "I wouldn't choose those flowers either. I would say red roses, white lilies"

"What's wrong with pink roses, red tulips and orchids ".

"Orchids yes but not tulips"

"Whose wedding is it?" replied Jon angrily.

I have never heard him raise his voice. Jordan just shrugs his shoulders.

"I am a better planner".

"Well just knock it off".

"I'm just saying. I have big plans for me" as he walks off.

"I thought you wanted breakfast".

"I lost my appetite as you two are here doing wedding crap".

"Now who is jealous".

"Jon, stop it".

"What? he started it?"

I shook my head and Jon closed his mouth with a big sigh before doing it. I live with kids. Two oversize kids. Great, why did we have to do this at his parents? Plus why is he here?

"Why is Jordan here?" I asked.

"Cos the lazy ass hasn't found anywhere to live".

"So what if I haven't found anything yet," Jordan said coming back into the kitchen.

"I thought you weren't hungry cos we were here" replied an annoyed Jon.

"Yeah but then I realised I am hungry," he says popping some pop tarts into the toaster. Then poured himself a coffee. He stands there drinking his coffee staring at me. I wish he would stop. But he is doing it without allowing his brother to know what is up. He was standing there listening to us talk and try to discuss.

"Your problem is that you can't decide on anything" he replied with a full mouthful of pop tart "Maybe I should be your wedding planner". He laughs. "You can't find a date".

"Summer".

"August 5th," says Jon before his brother opens his mouth again.

Well, that will shut him up. But no it didn't.

"Don't believe you" still munching on his pop tarts.

In between looking at me. I can tell he was teasing me. Every now and then he would smirk at me and his tongue would appear. Jon wasn't paying any attention which was making Jordan worse as he knew he was getting away with it.

"Well how about these as table labels?" asked Jon.

I heard a snicker near me.

"I like them" I replied ignoring the snicker again. I wish he would stop and leave us alone.

"In fancy writing or plain".

" Fancy".

"See we can do it".

There was a loud slurp of someone drinking his coffee. Jon wasn't caring about his brother's childish behaviour. But Jordan knew it was winding me up. As I looked up he grinned at me.

" I know you want it".

I shake my head and look back down at the brochures.

"I want it too," he said with an evil grin on his face then he picked up his coffee mug and walked out of the kitchen.

"Jerk".

" What?" asked Jon.

"Your brother".

"Ignore him everyone else does".

I wish I could he doesn't allow me to. It's easy for Jon to ignore his own brother but not me. I can still feel his touches. OMG, I need to get out of here. I excuse myself and went to the bathroom. Once I came out I met with a.

" Hello". Jordan was standing in the hallway. Oh great.

"What do you want?".

" You know what I want. I wanted it since that time in my office" he smirked at me.

I was getting a little uncomfortable standing there. I knew he was teasing me again. Maybe if we were still going out but we are not. He broke us up and left to travel the world. Now he acts as if we should be together. I'm with Jon now who doesn't know that I slept with his brother recently. Jordan was still standing there smirking at me. I tried to walk past but of course, he wouldn't let me.

"Don't do this" I replied trying again to move away from his advances. "Just don't".

"I know you want it. I know you want me and not my brother".

"One question then why break up with me if you still love me".

"It was easier that way. I didn't know how long I was going to be" he said, "You wanted a long-distance relationship and did not know where I was".

"It would have worked. It could have worked. If you trusted us and our relationship. But you broke it off. So you don't have any say in what I do and don't do. Got it" I said pointing a finger into his chest as I stood up to him "I am going downstairs to sort out my wedding with your brother". I start to walk off.

"No, you don't" as he grabs my arm and pulls me back. I collide with his body as I am spun around. "Hi".

Then he kisses me on the lips. Once again nothing malice in it. I hit him with my fists into his chest to stop him. But he doesn't. I know he is enjoying it a little too much. He has become that cocky jerk from when I met him on the training day at Mead & Knight Bytes Tech. He is using his 'I get what I want charm' on me but it's not working. I push against him again. This time he moves.

" I am not yours and will never be. Get that through your thick skull. You may be a bright spark in your family, academically". I was seething that he thinks he owns me. "You broke it off. That's down to you. I'm not yours anymore. Well never was".

" Oh, you are".

"No I am not. Just because you can get what you want from most people in your life but not me. I marrying your brother not you".

I walk off leaving him dumbfounded until he starts chuckling to himself.

I find Jon back in the kitchen. " I want to go home now".

"Okay. Why?".

" I don't feel great and would like to go home, please"...