Awaited Redemption

Wednesday | Lexie

Lexie

I rubbed my hands together in the hopes of getting the comfort of warmth's loving touch but even after, they were as cold as blocks of ice.

Winter has arrived, and with it my dreaded agony increased.

It was as if the time I decided to finally move on, finally let go of this pain. Let go of him.

All the forces of nature turned against my decision.

The spell casted by the gloom of the weather had started to show its effects on me.

I was in a damp mood.

Winter liked to play games, and due to that it reminded me of him.

It was harsh, damp, stingy, and dead. It was as dead and lifeless as a corpse.
But that wasn't enough, it also engulfed everything in its wake too.

The trees lose their beauty, the birds seize their chirping, even the sun loses its usual glee.

And me?

I was slowly beginning to get seized by the trap of my dead past.

But that was not the only thing that was the reason behind my foul mood.

I still haven't found that girl with a head scarf.

I was beginning to get agitated, and suspicious.

I was starting to doubt the whole event. Maybe the girl wasn't even there. Maybe she was just a figment of my imagination, I was in so much pain that day, and she suddenly appeared out of nowhere.

But I didn't want it to be, I didn't want her to be my imagination.

I wanted her to be real, but I couldn't find her.

Where was she? What was her name? Had something happened to her? Did she even came here?

All these questions were going to drive me crazy. I was sure I would lose my mind if I didn't see or meet her again in this span of the week.

The weather had turned into a mirror, which was shining my reflection down upon the whole city.

And if that was not enough, I even found him burning holes through me during the break.

Staring at me with accusation, and pain.

So much pain that it made me want to run away as far away from him as I possibly can.

What was his problem? And why did he never approached me to ask the questions that his eyes asked me every single time they clashed with mine.