Versailles Series Book 3: The Nun [COMPLETED]

CHAPTER 43

Nyx can't remember how they got out of the commotion. Kanina pa sila nakaupo sa sasakyan nito sa parking lot. Tahimik silang dalawa. She was scared and confused. Kanina pa nakahawak sa manibela si Azrael at nakikita niya ang higpit ng hawak nito roon.

Ito ang unang bumasag ng katahimikan.

"Who were those?"

She didn't answer. Her mind was occupied.

"Answer me, Nyx. Fucking answer me."

"S-si Greyson. Siya si Greyson, Azrael. Kasama niya ang asawa niya. Si Joy."

"What were you doing with them?"

"Inaantay kita. Nilapitan ako ni Greyson. Pinipilit niyang gusto ko pa rin siya."

"Well do you?! Is that why you were kissing him?! And his wife was right there in front of you! Fuck!"

Something in her snapped. Why out the blame on her?

"Hindi mo ba nakitang tinutulak ko siya?!"

"That's not what I saw. Your lips were on another man's, Nyx!"

"Hindi ko siya hinalikan, Azrael! Ex ko na siya! Wala na akong pagmamahal sa kanya! Ikaw na ang boyfriend ko!"

"Bakit sila nandoon?"

"Nagtatrabaho sila sa kumpanya mo. Matagal ko ng nakakausap si Joy. Ngayon ko lang nakita si Greyson ulit."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Para saan pa? Wala namang nangyayari."

"Really? How about tonight? Wala bang nangyari ang tawag mo roon?"

"Hindi ko alam na mangyayari iyon!"

"I could have prevented it if you fucking told me! Alam mo ba kung anong iniisip ng mga tao roon sa iyo? Na isa kang home wrecker. Isa kang kabit-"

She slapped him hard. "You know better than to call me that. You think I'll cheat on you? Sa ating dalawa, mas ikaw ang may tendency.

You are a playboy, Azrael. Who knows kung nagbago ka na? Paano kung na-miss mo iyung dati mong lifestyle? Paano kung hindi mo rin ako kasama may iba kng kinakama?

Huwag ako ang pag-isipan mo niyan dahil sa ating dalawa, ikaw ang mahilig sa babae. Kayang-kaya mo rin akong ipag palit kahit na kailan.

Hindi ko na mahal si Greyson, Azrael! Hindi ako sasama sa kanya."

Azrael was silent. His eyes were dead and he was just looking in front of the car.

Bumuntong-hininga siya. "Iuwi mo na ako sa hotel. Pagod na ako."

A few minutes passed before Azrael started the car. He drove silently. She was still busy calming herself down. She was as furious like him. How dare him think about her that way?

In what seemed like the longest time, nakarating din sila sa hotel niya. She felt exhausted. Saka na lang niya iisipin kung paano niya kakaharapin ang mga tao kanina. She unclasped her seatbelt when Azrael spoke.

"When you said yes to me, that includes your trust. I figured you don't trust me all along. At the back of your head, you were waiting for me to fail you.

I'll say this once.

I never let myself get this vulnerable with anyone. Wala pa akong babaeng minahal ng ganito. Even my love for my mother was never this great. And yet you'll just shatter everything in a snap. No one has ever hurt me like this. This was far more painful than what my mother did to me.

My reputation is not something I'm proud of. I was a playboy. I'm not anymore. I never cheated on anyone.

They always say you're too good for me. You know how I feel everytime I hear that? That I'm a garbage. I'm good for nothing. That I don't deserve you. Na hindi na ako magbabago. Turns out, kasama ka pala sa mga taong ganoon ang tingin sa akin.

I'm not trying to be faithful, Nyx. It comes naturally when you love someone. I just wish that despite everything, you still have a little faith in me. Pagkatiwalaan mo naman sana ako."

He exhaled. His hand was still clutching the steering wheel.

"I know you'll be going back tomorrow to the farm. Drive safely and let me know when you get there safely."

Tumango siya at tahimik na lumabas ng sasakyan. Hindi pa siya nakapasok ay narinig na niya ang pagharurot niyon palayo. Tila may kumirot sa puso niya.

Tila tinatamad siya umakyat sa kuwarto niya. Pagkabukas niya ng pinto ay napatigil siya.

There on her bed sat her gift for Azrael. That's when she remembered what day it was.

Napaluhod na lang siya sa gilid ng kama at napaiyak. She can't believe it. It was her fault this time.

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"Ay hindi raw makakauwi ang papa mo. Pero huwag ka ng malungkot at nilutuan naman kita ng kaunting handa. Eto o may cake pa kaming binili diyan sa bakery ng village."

Seven year old Azrael was just sitting on the table looking at the food the maids prepared for him.

He smiled at them before they served him food. Nang iwan na siya ng mga ito para kumain sa likod ng kusina ay tinignan niya ang mga walang lamang upuan.

He felt sad that his parents are not there. He felt alone. Kahit ilang kandila yata ang hipan niya ay hindi na matutupad ang hiling niya na mabuo ulit ang pamilya niya.

He ate in silence. Pinilit niyang ubusin ang pagkain kahit na hilam sa luha ang mukha niya.

Azrael can't even remember the happiest birthday he ever had. Probably because there wasn't.

He was always alone on his birthdays. Lalo na noong pinaalis na ng papa niya ang mga katulong at iba't ibang babae ang inuuwi nito.

He tried forgetting the damned date but how could he?

He parked his car outside the restaurant where he planned to have his birthday dinner with Nyx.

"Cancel my orders. Just bring me any wine and leave me alone."

Iyon ang sinabi niya sa nagse-serve bago umupo. He thought this day will be different. He was so happy to finally celebrate his birthday with someone who loves him.

He was on his second glass of wine when he brought a small velvet box out of his slacks.

He snapped it open. It had a very beautiful ring inside. He would have chosen a bigger diamond but knowing Nyx, she will prefer it to be simple.

Well it's just you and me and my wine.

He chose the perfect restaurant for the perfect proposal. He closed off the entire restaurant because he doesn't want a public proposal. He wanted a private and intimate one.

He was decided that he wanted to marry her. How could he not? He loves her very much.

Kumuyom ang kamay niya nang maramdaman ang kirot sa dibdib niya.

He closed the velvet box and returned to his drinking. He might regret it tomorrow but he just want to drown in his sadness.

Iyon naman siguro pwede 'di ba?

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