TW: Sexual Assault
Sometimes I'll wake up
With a horrible feeling
Down deep in my gut
It's a wound that's still healing
I still get PTSD
When I think of you
And than I think of me
I cry for no reason
When I hear your name
It depends on the season
It's really just a shame
I hate that nobody cares
Cause I'll wake up with scratches
A foggy brain covered in patches
So many girls can relate
Which is sad
Cause nobody cares until it's too late
I'm just so mad
I don't know what to say
You try to say hi
That's the most fucked part
I hold onto his hand
It helps like some kind of art
Lonely is what you could call it
My mom even told the school
She threw a big fit
They call her a tool
But I'm still scared
To ride busses
They say I cut my hair
And I cut more than that
But who am I to care
The only one I can blame
Is you
I remember every second
Every detail in your skin
I hate that I do
But I do
When did seconds get so long
I thought you were misunderstood
I was so wrong
Walk the plank feel the wood
I hate this
Just let me love me
Cause no one else can
