I'm Coming Back For More - Joonas Porko

Now Or Never

*Back On Aleksja

The flight didn't take too long, probably just two hours, but all this time i had a strange feeling like i shouldn't have left.

But i need this more than anything, i need to find myself again and get my heart to understand that Joonas doesn't want me or cares anymore even if it would be the most difficult thing I've ever done.

When i got in the taxi, i took my phone out and called Niko, after some rings he picked up.

"Oslo is calling" i said trying to sound excited

"Hey, how was your flight?" He was speaking to me but also i could here some whispers in the back, he wasn't alone probably

"It was good thanks, now i gotta go I'll call you again later" i paid the drive and took my suitcase

"Okay stay safe" he replied and hang up

When the taxi left,i grabbed my things and went in the hotel.

Actually i felt a bit stressed when i got in, i really hadn't missed my life in Norway.

"A room for 2 weeks please?" I asked the receptionist who seemed really nice and friendly

"Of course, 342, here is your key" she gave me the key and came with me to show me where the room is

And as i said, she was extremely friendly and polite

"If you need anything, you can just call in the reception" she smiled and i nodded

I opened the door and closed it behind me. I took my shoes off and walked in the room.

It was quite big and had an adorable view and let's say it was way too luxury for my taste.

I went in the balcony and the next moment i looked again at the town, i regretted being here.

I didn't feel like it, i wouldn't find myself here, i had to stay in a familiar place, and the memories from there maybe would make the pain go away.

I quickly went in and grabbed my phone. I pressed Niko's name and called him once again

"Hey sorry i need your help" i said when he picked up

Yea maybe, he got worried but once again my brain was off and i just did what came first on my mind.

"Did something happen?" And as i thought he sounded worried

"Book me a flight for Oulu, i just don't feel like it here..." There was a silent for some seconds till he spoke again

"Tomorrow morning? Are you okay with this?" He asked and i nodded like he could see me

"Yea, thank you Niko" i was way to glad to have a friend like him

"You sure that everything is fine? You want me to come to Oulu when you arrive?" I got it that they were worried but i just needed some time for myself

"Everything is fine and no please don't get there, good night now, it's better if i go to sleep" he replied a "good night" and we both hang up

I went in the bathroom and had a shower. The water was way too hot but that's exactly what i needed right now, it had to calm my whole nerves and it did a perfect job.

The only thing i took out of the suitcase was my pyjamas and then i went under the covers.

Let's see if Oulu will make things easier or even worse

*Joonas Pov

I waited for one hour in the airport like she would return back but nothing, just like i thought. I lost her. Forever