Forgiveness

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*HELLLLOOOO readers the girl in the picture is Sophie. hope this is good*

month #6 I guess things have been pretty boring.... I'm so terrified right now. Every time I think about giving birth..... Oh my god I don't know if I could do that i mean we're talking twins! I've gotten my two jobs and every day when I go and I see the look of disappointment in all of the older people's faces it makes me want to scream and sometimes cry. I've been staying at Anisa's house they are really nice people they treat me like family and have done so much for me so I can be happy. Dwayne stops by and we talk, during school he doesn't really talk to me which I figured. Everyone knows I'm pregnant even the teachers and people are guessing whether Nick or Dwayne is the baby daddy. 

I walk downstairs ready to head to school, all I have to do is wait for Annabelle and Anisa. Annabelle always takes forever to get ready she is always dressing up to impress her bae. Anisa is plan lazy and gets ready very slowly. Anisa's mom heads downstairs to make her husband breakfast and smiles when she sees me. 

"Hey Ella do you want some breakfast seems like the princesses are taking forever to get ready!" she says the last part pretty loudly so that the "princesses" can hear. "Does Anisa have a boyfriend?" She whispers

"No she is just plan lazy." I laugh and she joins me

"My husband and I have found an apartment at a good price for you to stay in." She says and my mouth drops open. 

"Are you serious!?" she nods and I get up and give her a hug, "Oh my god I am so grateful! Thank you thank you thank you! This means sooooo much to me!" I start to cry and she laughs at how happy I am. 

"I'm glad you're happy I'm thinking maybe next month we can get you settled. Those two are coming pretty soon." She points at my stomach and I nod. Anisa and Annabelle come arguing down the stairs yelling at each other. 

"Why can you have someone stay over and I can't!" Annabelle screams 

"Let me think about that! Well my guest isn't an abusive boyfriend!" Anisa responds

"Well look whose talking! Making our parents let this stupid girl get herself pregnant and then stay at our house!!" Annabelle screams and Anisa and Annabelle notice I'm in the room. Before they could say anything I just walk myself out. It's not its the first time I've heard someone say something negative about this whole thing. The whole thing is negative so I don't blame them. Hate me all they want at first I cared but now I could careless. 

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When I walk to class everyone stares and comments about me as if I wasn't right there. I walk into Art and take a seat next to Chanel. The room starts filling up with people and everyone including the teacher couldn't keep their eyes off of me. 

"I wonder who the father is????" Chanel asks causing the class to laugh. 

"Chanel you know damn well who the father is and why don't you keep that disgusting mouth of yours shut!" I say loud enough for everyone to hear. I expect a different reaction from her but she just burst out laughing. 

"Look guys its the mood swings!" she points at me and everyone laughs. I look out the window and hold in the tears, everyday I get bullied by these jerks and no one seems to care. 

"Chanel shut the FUCK up." Dwayne whispers not wanting this to be a whole class thing. 

"Well I'm NOT sorry you two idiots decided to have a kid." Chanel said quietly this time

"It wasn't something that was meant to happen." 

"Well it did and now look what you caused this girl to go through, dad is coming into town one of these days and I hope you have a good explanation" Chanel says and turns away

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At lunch time I find my seat with Jasmin, Anisa and Sophie. 

"Did you guys see the picture Bae took of me on his Instagram!? I look sooo sexy!" Sophie screams as we laugh at her. 

"That's the art of a black and white photo." Jasmin shrugs and Sophie rolls her eyes, 

"Ma'am I'll let you that i look good in any type of picture." 

"Speaking of him, where is he?" Anisa asks raising an eyebrow, I told her about when I caught him with another girl so she doesn't really trust him, she never has. 

"Oh he had to leave early his mom picked him up not even twenty minutes ago." Sophie told her

Sophie do you trust him?" Anisa asks

"Of course I do and don't start again with the whole 'Sophie he's bad for you he's nothing but a player Sophie' " She says mimicking Anisa 

"OK fine whatever I mean its your life." 

"Hows your sister?" Jasmin ask

"Well she is turning into someone I don't even know. But don't worry on Friday this will all stop. I have something against him that will make him weak. Once he's weak I'll tell him to stay away from my sister or else." Anisa says 

"WOW ok I'm glad this is all getting resolved, things are looking good for us." She looks at me waiting for me to say something. Usually I'm always in the conversation but lately I'm not feeling it. 

Nick walks in our direction and I look away ignoring him, the girls stay dead silent. 

"Ella don't do that." He sits next to me trying to get my attention. I ignore him as if he wasn't there. "Look I need to talk to you.....I'm so sorry I have been such a jerk lately." I still ignore him, he puts his hand on my hand but I pull away and ignore him. "Remember when we kissed? That was completely real, I have feelings for you Ella and your condition doesn't change that." 

" Da Fuck! Her condition!? you say it like its a disease! She's PREGNANT! Doesn't seem like you're ok with it because you can't even say the word!" Sophie screams standing up now. "How about you get the fuck away from her Nick!" She points to the door and he walks away. Her face all red from screaming everyone stares at her and Jasmin tells her to sit down.  

When everyone goes back to what they were doing I thank Sophie and we move on from that.

"Did you hear him? 'Remember when we kissed..' " Sophie mimics him in a deep voice and makes this disgusting face that makes me laugh. 

"You never told us you guys kissed? When did this happen." Jasmin asked

"About a month ago and then he started screaming at me because I'm pregnant." I answered. I don't have time for him or his lies, I don't have time for anyone except for my kids. I need to take care of them. I need to love them because I'm all they have. 

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