One Big Mistake(on hold)

Suicide

*Hey guys I really wish you would read this chapter I think its really good. The video is so sad I cry everytime I'm still crying right now I just watched the video. Anyways I hope you guys enjoy.*

Month number seven and a half! I'm so excited....... Yea right. I can't even believe myself. Everyone at school has been giving me digusted faces and whispering about me when I walk by. I know I shouldn't take it to heart but just the thought of being hated by so many people and having no one to back me up.... it feels terrible. sure Dwayne, Nick and Sophie had stood up for me but when they're not there it's like I'm weak. when I get nervous and people say stuff to me I just get tongue tied and can't stand up for myself. I get dressed quickly in a loose blue shirt with my black jeans and black vans. it takes me forever to put on my shoes because bending down is extremely hard.

Once I get ready I hop in the car and Anisa drives me to school.

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"Ella!" Nick calls my name while coming over to me, Anisa groans and rolls her eyes.

"Sometimes I think he's obsessed with you." she mutters and walks away. Nick wraps me around and kisses me.

"Hey beautiful," he whispers in my ear

"Hi" I whisper back and take his hand so we can walk to class. "I have to go to the bathroom, wait for me?" I tell him and he nods. stupid Pee. when I walk in all the stalls are taken and I lean against the wall to wait for the next available one. a group of girls walk up to me and laugh.

"Hi hoe," the tallest girl with the blonde hair says looking me up and down with a disgusted face.

"Looks like someone forgot to take out the trash," on of the girl next to her says and they all laugh. there's five of them and they circle around me so I can't escape.

"What do you want?" I try to sound confident and try to hide how scared I am right now.

"I know what you want.... diiiiiiick!" The tall girl says and spits in my face when she says it they all crack up and hands form into fist. "aaw pregnant girl tryin to defend herself," she pouts and shoves me. "do something huh," they laugh as she shoves me and pushes me hard against the wall. my eyes start tearing up and I close them tight imagining them go away.

"Leave her the hell alone!" Chanel walks in and slaps the girl shoving me.

"Well would you look at this," the blonde girl takes a moment to look at Chanel's furious face and continues, "pregnant girl already has herself an aunt!!"

"Girl if you don't get your crusty ass out of here imma call all my friends to knock you out. " chanel practically screams and I stand there shocked at everything that's happening. usually chanel is the person I hate but right now she's my hero.

"Ok ok fine.... see ya later whore." the girl says and they all walk out.

Chanel faces me and looks at me angry.

"Why can't you defend yourself!?" She screams at me, the bathroom is practically full of people but she obviously doesn't care, the old chanel is back once again.

"I'm sorry ok! Is that what you want to hear!? I'm sorry I disappointed you just like a disappointed everyone else!!!!" I yell to her face and run out crying. Chanel tries to stop me but I keep running. I hear Nick behind me but then he stops after a while. guess I'm not worth it.

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First period goes by peacefully, I don't see any of the girls around thank goodness and Chanel hasn't been around either. the bell rings and the librarian dismisses us to our next class, I walk through everyone shoving me and get to class. heads turn when I walk in but I ignore them. I take a seat in my regular desk and open up my journal to right down the homework.

Class starts and after twenty minutes my phone vibrates revealing a series of hurtful comments .

NO ONE LIKES YOU GO TO HELL

YOUR A SKANK AND YOU SLEEP AROUND

YOU LOOK RETARDED - unknown caller

I look around the room to try to identify someone suspicious. no one looks my way and the texts continue.

WHO YOU GONNA SLEEP WITH TONIGHT!?

I put my phone away but it continues to vibrate non stop. I take it out and look down. as I'm putting in my password the teacher screams at me.

"Listen Daniella I know you might think there are more important things in your life right now... considering your situation..." the teacher gets cut off by all the faces cracking up laughing

"You need to focus in class and stop being lazy." he finishes and looks at the board.

The kids in front of me make disgusting movements, stick their finger in their mouth and grind on the chair. they all snicker and one of them flicks me off. I look down and close my eyes. they're words and actions don't matter.

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At dismissal I don't even bother waiting for anyone to pick me up I just start walking down the side walk away from the school. everyone has been mean and hurtful to me all day I keep receiving rude text and I don't respond to any of them so apparently they think that it's ok to continue sending me these texts. foots steps come up from behind me and a voice calls my name.

"Ella babe slow down!" Dwayne says out of breath and smiles at me. his face drops when he sees my face, I've been crying. he stands in front of me and studies my face. "what happened?" He asks wiping a tear away. I shake my head and try to walk pass him but he stops me. my phone rings and before I could take it he takes it first. his eyes grow wide and his face fills with anger.

"Who the fuck thinks they can talk to you like this!?" He screams scrolling through the texts. he continues to scroll and scroll and scans he texts. the phone rings again and it's a voice message.

"YOU LITTLE HOE, WHY ARE YOU EVEN AT THIS SCHOOL YOU DONT DESERVE WHAT YOU HAVE. YOU DONT EVEN DESERVE THOSE BABIES IN YOUR STOMACH DA FUCK!!!!" The voice burst out laughing and a whole bunch of other voices join in. I feel like breaking down. I scream and burst with tears. Dwayne grabs me and pulls me into a hug.

"Why did this have to happen to me!!!?" I scream crying into his chest. I feel tears rolling down my cheeks and they aren't mine. Dwayne is crying too. he rocks me back and forth and I continue to cry in his shoulder while the phone continues to ring. we both ignore it and just stand there weak and defenseless. no one can stop them.

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Dwayne takes me to his house so I can cool off. I haven't seen chanel all day and I hope she's not ignoring me. I take a long cold shower to wash off all the pain. when I'm done I go into the guess room(my room) and look at my phone to delete all the texts and move on. I don't even bother to look on Instagram or snapchat or anything because the bullies keep telling me they are saying stuff about me. I hold in all the tears as I try not to read the texts. Once a finish with one unknown callers text I receive a new one.

GO FUCK YOURSELF..... WAIT I HAVE A BETTER HOW ABOUT YOU JUST FUCK OFF THIS PLANET.

I drop my phone when I read the text and pace around the room.

Thoughts fill me head. this hate has been going on for seven months now, all the hate, the looks, the snickering the bullying. today is the worst of all the days. no one can help me.... no one can try to stop them. my phone starts vibrating again alerting me I have new messages. my heart starts pounding as I start to get angry and cry. I hate this world.... why was I cursed upon such a terrible life? Ever since I was little not even my parents seemed to care about my day. now everyone just wants me to disappear, even my teachers and they say to come to them when you need help. I think about the last text they sent that I saw and tightly close my eyes. at lunch I almost tripped because almost everyone was trying to trip me. I need to stay strong... but how. I don't want to die. maybe...... maybe I can just get rid of the babies. I pick up my hair into a pony tail and walk out of the room towards the stairs. I look around and no one is there. I take a deep breathe and turn away so my back is facing the stairs. I close my eyes and breathe once more. here goes nothings.