Sing To Me Instead

Burnt Out - Leanna Firestone

I've never felt as warm as I did when you would touch me, hold me, you gave me goosebumps at the slightest brush. But our love wasn't made to last. A flame lit on a match is destined to burn out and end up in ashes and smoke. 

Still, though, embers from when you dropped it and stamped on it, they stayed for me. I tried to re-ignite them, and I ended up playing with fire again. You would push me away again and again, but we fought and I'd end up staying. But maybe I should've listened to you. 

Because you were right. I couldn't fix you. I shouldn't have even tried, because your pride is what you've always been concerned about. Is "you're right" really all you want to hear right now? Well, you're right. I should've walked away faster. I should've known that you'd only break my heart, crushing it into pieces, as soon as I was in too deep. 

You're right. You aren't good enough. Because I kissed your scars even after you hurt me. I held your hand even when you would fucking burn me, do you have any idea how embarrassing that was?

To stay with someone you hates you? And only because you hope things get better. You hope with all of you heart that love can turn a monster into a man. But it doesn't, it won't, it never will. Never for you, because you're beyond repair, but there is still someone for me somewhere. 

And they'll treat me so well, so well that you'll wish you did. For someone so smart, you are just so fucking stupid to think that I'm that dumb. I love you. But I'm done. 

I'm done pretending this was going to work, that loving you didn't hurt. That it wouldn't burn when you think that you're always right. Because you're still stuck in the past, and even though you hate him so much, you are just like your dad. 

You've smothered every light, any piece of affection I had for you, by holding on far too tight. And it's suffocating. I was trapped, I couldn't breathe. And I longed to breathe again, and in the middle of it all I lost who I was. But I'm back now. 

And I know that you tried. You have it all that you had. And being a goddamn monster doesn't make you bad, I guess. But even if we could fix it now, you can't light a fire that's already burned out.