Please love me more than I hate myself||Hyunchan ff

6

What was he about to do? Would he do the same things Simon did? Or even worse? I wouldn't be able to take that...
My lungs got tighter, it became more difficult to breath, my hands started shaking, my legs soon followed.
What was about to happen?

Hyunjin POV
He moved his hand up to touch my face. I flinched, but he wasn't bothered. He got even closer. I felt his body against mine. His strong chest, muscles and his boner. In this moment I was unable to move. My mind got blanc and I thought it would be best if I would just wait till it's over...
„No mom I'm at school. Actually I shouldn't be at my phone and talk to you right now...No, I'll be home by-"
We both turned around to see a blonde guy stepping into the class room. He was talking into his phone and looking in the other direction. But before Jacob or me could do anything, the guy turned around and I was as shocked as him.
It was Chan. Changbins friend.
He seemed to understand the situation immediately and caught my gaze. He put down his phone and and into his jeans pocket. I don't know what lead him to help me but he spoke up with a strict tone
„Hey Hyunjin, what a surprise! Who is that?" he said suspicious and pointed at Jacob. But before I could answer he did
„That has nothing to do with you. I was about to have some fin with him. So just go away."
„But Hyunjin doesn't seem to enjoy it."
Chan responded threatening. I flinched at his sudden mood swing and that seemed to be enough for Chan. He sprinted forward, and pulled Jacob away from me. He grabbed him by the collar and said calmly
„If you ever touch him again, you'll regret it." it was so silent but still so effective. Jacob burst out the door leaving me with Chan. Now, that he was gone. I couldn't hold back my tears and started sobbing. Chan wanted to hug me but I flinched away. He apologized and asked how he could help me.
„No. you already helped me a lot. Th-thank you."
„No problem kid. Do you want me to call Changbin?"
„No! Please he would be too worried." Chan nodded, he understood.
„Ok then what do you want to do?"
„I have class now I should go." he looked understanding and led me to my classroom. Before I opened the door he called me back.
„If you ever need something, or someone, I'm here ok?" I swallowed hard. That was so kind of him. It felt good to hear something like that. It made me feel like I still had some worth. I shook that thought away and entered the classroom, my teacher was too late so I could go to my chair without further attention. Jacob was steering at me and a shiver went down my spine. But I tried my best to ignore him and sat down. Still confused about what happened, Jacob, Chan who saved me, Chan... his eyes are so beautiful. These stunning brown eyes. They made me feel safe, I could drown in them. They were like melting chocolate, sweet and comforting...

„Hyunjin you're coming ? Class is over." Lix called for me. I hurried up, packed my stuff and followed Han and Lixie.
„See you guys later, and hurry up!" Minho shouted while hurrying to their bus. Changbin, Jeongin and I went to our bus station and went home.
We packed our stuff, clothes, toilet stuff and everything we would need. I was already waiting in the hall when Changbin came down the stairs and suddenly tripped over something he nearly fell but luckily he caught himself. I couldn't resist but started laughing so hard. I was expecting Changbin to be mad but instead he just smiled at me.
„I'm gonna ignore the fact that you just laughed about me, because it has been weeks since I saw you smiling like this."
That came so random that I stopped laughing and started thinking.
Was I really that obvious ? I mean I know that I'm not doing so well, but I thought I was hiding it better, all the fake smiles...
„Can we goooo ?" Jeongin was already outside, really bubbly. Probably happy he would be able to see a certain someone. We got into the car and our mother was driving.
We arrived and Jeongin rang the bell. Soon a squirrel opened the door and let us enter. Changbin was directly claimed by Felix and Jeongin went over to Seungmin and Minho. Chan and Han were chillin in the kitchen, preparing and snacking some food. Nope not my place. That whole were to be situation started to freak me out. No place seemed to be right for me. In that right moment it hit me. I wasn't nobodies favorite person, I wasn't the son his parents are proud of, not the brother everybody wanted, not the boyfriend everybody was craving for. I didn't belong anywhere.
Tears started to build up and before anybody could see them I went to the bathroom. I closed the door and broke down right behind it. I screamed on the inside, to let out all the emptiness all the pain all the things that were hurting me everyday, that broke my heart into pieces. Day by day even more.
Tears streaming down my cheeks but I stayed quiet.
I ran my trembling fingers through my hair trying to earn the control over my body back, to calm down from the shivers that went over me every few seconds.
I was sweating like I was standing in fire but I was freezing like I was laying in ice. That is how my heart felt. On the one hand burning and hurting like hell on the other just cold and numb.
Suddenly I heard someone knocking on the door.
„Hyunjin? Are you ok, do you maybe need anything?"

Chan.
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Hey guys!
I know it took me really long. I hope I can be more active and everything but I don't want to promise you to update and them disappoint you, so I'll just try my best.
Hope y'all liked this chapter and that you are doing ok. :)
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