FAVORITE (Social Media Series #2)

XXIII

A/N: Merry Christmas Everyone!

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Sweats in my palm and forehead were unstoppable. The phase of my heartbeat was faster than normal. Sobrang kaba ang aking nararamdaman habang binabagtas ang daan papuntang ospital. 

I'm overthinking, I cannot stop myself to think negative. Sobra akong kinakabahan, iniisip kung ano ang madadatnan sa ospital.

"Patient Josh Guerrero," sabi ni kuya sa nurse desk ng makapasok kami sa ospital. "Emergency room po."

Pagkasabi na pagkasabi ng nurse ay tumakbo kami agad sa emergency room. Walang lumalabas na mga luha sa aking mga mata pero yung sakit sa puso ko, ramdam na ramdam ko.

"Guardian of Mr. Guerrero?" Bungad sa amin ng doctor ng makarating kami sa emergency room. 

"Yes doc, h-how's josh?" kinakabahan kong tanong.

"Hindi na ako magpapaligoy-ligoy pa ma'am. We need to operate his hand immediately, he has scaphoid bone fracture, it can cause a cell death and arthritis, we also determined that he has nerve injury, nerve damage from a hand or wrist injury will cause impaired movement and sensation, and also pain. Hindi napuruhan ang kaniyang ulo pero ang kanang kamay niya was really damaged. We need any of his relatives to sign the wages, or even an authorization." 

"H-his parents were out of the country, b-but I can contact his uncle, i-is that fine?" 

"As long as it was authorized of any of the patient's guardian then it is settled," Napahinga ako ng malalim habang kinukuha ko ang cellphone ko sa bag. My hands were trembling, hindi pa halos ma-process ang sinasabi ng doctor. "Ma'am, the operation, rooms and other therapy will cause you millions, sinabi ko lang po ma'am for the transparency. If everything is settled, punta na lang po kayo sa nurse lobby to sign the wages" 

"Do the operation doc, just, just be sure that he's safe." I said. The doctor just nodded and gave me an assuring smile then he left. 

Pagkaalis na pagkaalis ng doctor ay bumagsak ako sa sahig dahil sa panghihina. Napahagulgol ako dahil sa bigat ng nararamdaman ko.

"Kiana" alo sa akin ni Kuya. Ni-hindi ko siya matignan sa mata dahil ngayon na lang ako ulit naging vulnerable sa harap niya. "K-kuya, it was fault." sabi ko ng paulit-ulit.

Kung sana hindi ako nagtago, hindi kami nagbangayan sa phone, hindi ito mangyayari. I was overthinking things. It feels that the worst place is in my head. If only thoughts had an off switch, matagal ko ng ginawa. 

I know that isn't healthy, mas gusto kong isipin yung pagasa, yung hope. But, I can't do it. Kahit anong pilit ko, nauuwi pa rin sa konsensya ko.

"No one wants this Kiana. Stop blaming yourself, please calm down." sabi niya at yumakap ng mahigpit sa akin. "Ako na kakausap kila Tita, pumunta ka na lang doon sa nurse lobby for wages."