Beyblade Burst Oneshots <3

Tired ~ Valt Aoi

requested by TheAzureGirl :)

this will be in valt's pov so yeah

so uhhh

enjoy this angst drabble <3

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[Valt's POV all the way]

  The mask came off, revealing the person behind it.

  Wait.

  White hair?

  And his name is Red Eye.

  No... it couldn't- couldn't be him, right?

  I don't want to believe what I just saw.

  I've gotta confirm.

  Running down the slope, I sprint towards him.

  Shu.

  "Dude, I've been looking all over for you! I finally found you..." My eyes are teary, as I grip him by the shoulders.

  He doesn't look happy though.

  He's shaking with anger.

  I know that look.

  Shu glares at me, as I take in my friend's features for the first time in a long while.

  "You, get out of my sight!"

  Ugh.

  I hate thinking about that.

  He pushes me away, as my legs weaken and I fall into the bushes behind me.

  I just stare at him, as he walks away.

  Hah.

  I'm so useless aren't I?

  Just another thing for people to use, for people to benefit from, for people to manipulate.

  I can't even say anything more to my own best friend.

  How is it like to lose your best friend?

  I have mixed feelings, looking back on that stupidly embarassing incident.

  I don't know at this point.

  I'm tired, I don't have the energy to do anything at the moment.

  I still wonder though.

  Could I have prevented Shu from becoming Red Eye?

  I wish I could have. But it's my fault that I didn't put any effort into helping him.

  He probably hates me.

  He despises me.

  He always has, hasn't he?

  Because I'm always annoying him, because I'm at fault for everything, because I'm barely mature, because I can never do anything right, because I never listen, BECAUSE I'M SO USELESS!

  Gosh.

  Why am I getting so worked up over this?

  I'm overreacting, I'm overreacting, I'm overreacting, I'M OVERREACTING.

  Ah, there I go again.

  I'm so tired of letting loose my anger like this.

  No one would like that.

  My genuine distress and angers, all masquerading as childish temper tantrums.

  Because that's what everyone thinks of me right?

  A childish boy, who knows and learns nothing, always so positive, always so happy-go-lucky, always so needy, so 'precious', always in need of help, JUST A CHILD.

  I hate how I'm perceived.

  It's all so tiring.

  To fake it all.

  I just want to let it all out.

  I want to vent.

  Shu...

  He's one of the reasons I'm like this.

  Has he realised it all?

  That my personality is a fake?

  I used to be childish, obviously.

  But I changed. But I also didn't.

  If I changed, I wouldn't be 'Valt' anymore. I would just some strange guy.

  God, how did my thoughts turn into going on about this?

  This is so stupid, heh.

  I'm just tired.

  Tired of being someone who I'm not, tired of being forced to be someone I'm not, tired of fitting into society's standards on how eleven year olds should behave, tired of just everything.

  I wanna end it all.

  But I can't bring myself to do it.

  Shu's gonna think I'm joking.

  Like I always do.

  Without
  a
  problem.

  I can't bring myself to do anything.

  BC Sol is tiring too.

  I don't wanna be teased for doing something I enjoyed, I don't wanna be yelled at for 'playing Beyblade wrong'.

  What happened to me just having fun, as the top priority?

  So much changed.

  I wanna go back.

  Go back to who I was before.

  So carefree.

  I miss actually being a child.

  I didn't pretend.

  I didn't masquerade.

  I didn't have problems.

  I had Shu and Xander.

  I miss them.

  Sigh.

  I would normally go to Shu for help but... I can't. Obviously.

  But whatever.

  Shu, I'm so sorry.

  I'm sorry I didn't help you earlier.

  I'm sorry I wasn't by your side.

  I'm sorry for faking.

  I'm just sorry.

  Let me rest please.

  Shu, I'm so tired.

  I wanna rest...

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  went kind of offtrack with azure's request but hopefully she enjoyed it ;-;