Falling Apart (Ziall Horlik)AU

Chapter 15

Zayn's POV

I took a deep breath before walking into the house where I knew there would be so much fighting at tears in the next few minutes. I opened the door slowly and walked in, hearing the sound of the television on from the living room. I could already feel the tension that was building just as I walked in.

I set my stuff to the side then took small steps to the living room. Perrie was curled up in a blanket on the couch while the news was quietly playing on the television. I went to go turn it off, but she started moving around on the couch.

"Zayn?" I heard he ask sleepily. I wanted to tell her I was a figment of her imagination so I could leave, but when I turned around and saw her sitting up I knew I was in for a long couple of hours.

"Do you want to explain everything to me now or have everyone tell me later?" She asked with a bite to her tone. I looked down at my feet and told myself it was now or never.

"I cheated on you with Niall." I whispered quietly. I heard her snort, then start laughing at me. My eyes met hers and I saw just how much she didn't believe me. I was telling her just what she needed to be told and she wasn't believing me.

"Right, and I've made out with all the girls. You're really trying to get out of this by telling me shit like that?" Perrie asked me. I shook my head and went to sit by her on the couch.

"I'm serious, Perrie. I've always liked him, but this tour just made things go crazy with us and we... I love him." I told her, wanting her to know it wasn't her that I loved. I watched her face go from humored to complete shock.

"You, what?" She asked me slowly. I tried to reach for her hand to comfort her, but she just moved it away from her and stood up.

"I love hi-"

"I know what you said, but you-you just can't do that! This is a joke!" She squeaked, then covered her face with her hands for a minute. I sat there watching her as she tried to calm down, but I knew I didn't lay it on her easy so she had every right to not be calm.

"What did you do with him? Tell me everything you did with him." She said after a few minutes of silence. I just sat there silently because what me and Niall have done was just between us. I feel like this way of having sex with him and the times we kissed are more personal than any other time I've have sex with a girl. I just don't want to tell her, mainly because this wasn't a sex thing, this was a love thing.

"I can't tell you." I told her, then looked down at my shaking hands. I thought Perrie would respect that and get mad at me about something else now, but instead she came over and sat next to me. I looked up at her and she gave me a pure look of disgust.

"Have you always been gay, or was it just for him? Did he ruin you?" She asked me. I shook my head because no, Niall didn't ruin me. He made everything better. He was always there for me when I needed him and he was always the one that was by my side when I was going through something. He made me better, no matter how much I fought my feels in the beginning he just broke through those walls and showed me my true self again. He showed me that love was sweet and kind. He showed me that forgiveness is still possible, but mostly he showed me happiness.

"He didn't do anything wrong. The feeling was mutual, I guess." Perrie shook her head and started wiping the tears that fell.

"You're quiting that band. I don't trust you to be touring with him because all we know is he messed up your mind and could rape you." I stood up the minute she said that and pointed at her.

"Don't you dare say something so horrible about him! He's not like that, and you know it!" I yelled. She rolled her eyes and let out a sarcastic laugh.