Falling Apart (Ziall Horlik)AU

Chapter 16

Zayn's POV

After a few days of just staying in my house talking a psychiatrist and getting some antidepressants for my anxiety, I decided I should fly back out to be with the boys. I felt like things were going to start getting under control and I could go back to being with the band.

The other day I feel like I over reacted to the whole cheating rumor, then going home to hear what Perrie had to say. I wasn't thinking about anything other than the fact that Niall told me to go back to be with Perrie and ended it right then and there. Loosing him would be the end of me. That's also why I'm going back.

I ended it with Perrie officially so now I'm ready to completely love Niall the way he deserves to be loved. I hope he doesn't push me away. I knew this is selfish of me to finally dedicate myself to him when I was ready to, but I hope he understands.

I got off the flight and got in the car that was waiting for me. I felt nervous to go back to the boys, thinking they would judge me for taking time off. I knew Niall wouldn't and maybe Louis, but the other two would probably want more information on what is wrong with me. There's not allot, just severe anxiety and depression caused by stress.

The car drove up to the back of the hotel and I felt myself getting panicked. I still had three more days off until I had to perform again, but I really just wanted to come back to be with Niall. I was just scared he got over me already. I know it's impossible for me to get over him.

Once the car stopped and I could get out, I breathed in the fresh air that I really needed. It was early in the morning so the air seemed so much fresher.

While I walked down the hallway to my room that I was told to go to, I kept telling myself that everything would be fine and I had nothing to worry about. I got to my room and was going to open the door, but the door across the hall opened and a gasp distracted me from doing so.

"Zayn!" Louis' high pitched voice squeaked, then I felt his arms wrap around me from behind. I laugh and turned in his arms to give him a warm hug.

"Did you purposely not tell us about coming back so soon?" He asked me quietly, sounding like he was on the verge of tears. I hugged him tighter and rubbed his back.

"I just figured it would be fine if I came now." I told him, feeling myself get a bit emotional. I really missed the boys in just those short days, but I didn't think they would miss me at all. Louis pulled away and looked down the hall.

"Niall hasn't been doing well. He's always sleeping when we're not working. The only time I see him be normal, happy, fun Niall is when Liam can cheer him up to write some music." Louis told me softly. I felt my heart break because I did that to him. I hurt him and made him not himself. I hope that even after that he can forgive me and give me another chance that I don't deserve.

"I'll fix it. Has he, um, missed me?" I asked, sounding very stupid, but I really just wanted to be sure he wasn't sad about something else. Not that I wanted him sad, I just want him to miss me like I missed him. Louis looked at me like I was stupid so I took that as a yes.

I went into my room and put my stuff down then went with Louis to the room down the hall and knocked at it lightly. We both waited for a few minutes then Liam opened the door only wearing his boxers. He smiled brightly at me, but I wasn't so happy to see him because there was a churning jealousy own my stomach from thinking of him being with Niall almost naked.

"It good to see you. Niall's asleep, but I'm sure he'll be more than happy to know you're here." I nodded and made my way into the dark room. I walked over to the bed and saw Niall curled up under multiple blankets. My eyes ran over his face and I couldn't help but reach my hand out and run it over his cheek. Niall moved in the bed and slowly opened his eyes. I couldn't help but notice how red they were even in this dark room.