(04/11/2021)day 22:
It's a test.
'They need time.'
I have to wait.
You never reply immediately, most of the time it takes you 10 minutes or 12 hours.
You're unintentionally making sure I'm waiting.
It's the universe testing my patience.
But I'll wait, forever.
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I'm scared to say that I like you out loud, I'm afraid of jinxing it and stopping the process of falling in love, but I don't think that's happening, you make me float too high up.
Falling in love by itself is something beautiful that was difficult for me to obtain, I don't want to get rid of it, even if it's unreciprocated.
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I indulged in an obsession over you in the middle of this night.
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You are this soft and gentle with all your friends, I'm not special at all, I don't know why I thought I was.
Just because I feel fuzzy inside and get light headed when you're around doesn't mean you feel the same way.
I'm always thinking I want you to like me the way I like you, but I never once deserved you.
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Your date with him was amazing you said, maybe I'll make this a competition. I don't know if you're interested in girls and I'm not going to ask because I don't want to make you uncomfortable.
I want to take you out somewhere, but I don't know you.
What would you like?
I want you to have the time of your life when you're with me, but I'm so awkward and shy, like a high school girl with her crush [which is exactly what I am].
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I think I'm angry, though more at myself than I could ever be at you, you've done nothing wrong.
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Would you believe it?
You actually make me feel horrible.
I send you a few messages and three hours later you reply with "sorry for replying so late" but you don't actually reply to anything I said.
If you send 27 voice messages I'm going to listen to each one twice and reply to every single thing you said, I cherish you so much and you simply couldn't care less.
Maybe you really do have nothing to say to me.
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You're lactose intolerant.
