(09/11/2021)day 27:
Yes, I remember your schedule, not all of it yet though.
Yes, I remember everything you tell me, at least I try to.
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You look beautiful in that skirt.
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We talked for 20 minutes relentlessly.
I was so nervous, but I loved every second of it.
You even lost track of time and then went rushing to class, does that mean you enjoyed it as much as I did?
I, on the other hand, was too conscious of everything I counted the seconds even before they passed and then slowly made my way to class with a stump for a head and a hive for a heart.
I'm falling more and more, I never want it to stop, let me keep falling.
Let me fall forever.
You look beautiful.
I'm so awkward and I talk a lot.
You're so quiet. I still love talking to you.
It was so nice.
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You always tell me to quit with the compliments and I always tell you, you deserve every single one. Truth to be told you deserve even more than what I give you, maybe I should try harder.
At this point, how are you so blind?
How can you not see the love I hold for you, I'm literally dangling it in front of your face like a red cloth in front of a bull.
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a song that makes me think of you: Enjoy The Silence by Depeche Mode
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That's it, I've found my reason to keep going. You make me feel alive.
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While drunk, I've told so many people about my love of you. And what you make me feel still hasn't changed.
Damn you for being everything I ever wanted.
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I think about you, always, always. Always.
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'What makes you happy?' You.
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I might be getting frustrated but I'll still wait forever.
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Do I love myself? I don't know.
Do I hate myself? I don't know.
But you make me happy, I like this type of happiness.
