I don't know why I thought that I could lay with someone after everythingI wanted so badly to be healed
But then he was knocked out cold beside me while I laid awake, tears streaming down my face
I didn't say a word and put on my shoes and left silently
I should have said something
He didn't do anything wrong
But every word muttered to me bled into my heart
He had no part of this but it all reminded me of it
How dirty and horrible I felt
I clenched my eyes shut and gritted my teeth but the tears didn't stop
I backed out in the quiet of the night and left him
I didn't text to tell him I had left until I was home
The house was just as eerie as I walked in
I wanted to escape this
everything
I was so tired of feeling beaten and broken
I knew that deep in my heart I needed to heal
But every time I opened the door inside myself to do just that
my world blackened and the tears never gave me room to breathe
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