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jisung was in sohye's car, the girl asking him to go on a ride early in the morning. jisung absolutely hated waking up early, but if it meant spending time with the girl of his dreams, he'll never sleep again.
the two went to get breakfast downtown, and then just drove around. by the time they got back in town, he just stared at her in awe as the music played with the windows down. "did i ever tell you about the time my mom first took me out to just drive around? i was around eight and i had this awful anxiety of being in the car at night so she tried to help me by... driving at night. we were out all night."
"i'm assuming you're over your anxiety now?" she asked, looking at the road to find a good place to park.
he nodded, "it's been relaxing ever since then... you're beautiful."
"stop saying those things." she shook her head, the guilt beginning to eat at her as she thought of seungmin's kiss day and night.
"but it's true. you're lovely, the loveliest of them all. that's why i love you." he attempted to stroke her hair back, but the girl moved her head forward to dodge him. he was a bit moved by it, the girl pulling into a park where families enjoyed their day out. "is everything okay? you've been acting weird."
"i'm so sorry." she instantly said, unbuckling her seat belt so they could face each other. looking at him hurt her, but she knew it was the right thing to do. "jisung, i'm sorry i don't love you."
he was shocked at first, but then smiled at her, "you don't have to say it back, i know that i love you and it's okay if you're not quite there yet. i'm more than willing to stay here."
she shook her head, realizing that he wasn't understanding. "you've made me feel loved, and cherished. you're the most amazing first boyfriend ever. but i'm sorry... i don't love you. i won't... i won't get there, ever."
he tilted his head, finally getting the clue. for the first time, his heart had dropped. he's losing the girl of his dreams, the one he has loved from the moment he laid his eyes on. "you're breaking up with me, aren't you?"
"you don't deserve me. this is for the best, i promise you—"
"but i deserve you. you're an amazing girlfriend, you've never done anything wrong. you've never done anything to hurt me." he told her, the face of guilt becoming all too evident on her face. "you've never.. you've never done anything to hurt me, have you?"
for a long time, there was silence. in fact, she wasn't sure if she should even speak up at all. but then sohye realized how many scenarios were running through his head, and she didn't want to make the pain any longer than it had to be, "we're not meant for each other jisung, we had a good thing going.. at least i know that's how you saw it, that we were perfect together. but we never were. i was looking for a way out before we began. i'm sorry."
