Three to Tango

About To Leave ~ Already Left

"I am offering you a threesome kind of relationship, Venice."

Napatitig ako sa hawak kong kontrata. After the threesome sex, Chad helped me clean myself while Steph left the room. Pagkatapos makapaglinis at maayos ang sarili, dito napunta ang usapan naming dalawa.

Chad briefly explained to me what he and Stephen wanted from me; they wanted a woman to give Stephen his needs.

"Balik-baliktarin ko man ang mundo, ipinanganak akong lalaki, Ven. I don't have what a woman has and therefore, I can never satisfy Josh."

Mula sa papel, umangat ang tingin ko kay Chad. There was a hopeful look in his eyes and right now, I could not understand why he agreed to include a woman in their relationship. "Don't tell me, natatakot kang iwan ni Steph dahil sa babae kaya papayag ka na lang na may pangatlo sa relasyon niyo?"

He bit his bottom lip before he shrugged his shoulders. "Noong una iyon ang dahilan kaya isinagest ko 'to kay Josh. He didn't agree at first but I insisted. Two years na kami, Ven. Pero, lalaki pa rin siya. Dadating ang araw na hindi na sapat na ako lang. He needs to have sex with a woman." Umusog nang pagkakaupo palapit sa akin si Chad. He took my hand and I inhaled a sharp breath because of his warm skin. Both of us were only wearing robes again and I was still sensitive because of how they took me to heaven earlier. "Pero ngayon, may mas malalim na akong dahilan."

His thumb caressed my knuckles as he gave me a small smile.

"Don't you think I deserve to know your other reason?" Huminga ako nang malalim bago ipinatong ang kontrata sa lamesa sa tapat ko. "Isa pa, ex niya ako, Chad. May nakaraan kami. Minsan sa mga buhay namin, minahal namin ang isa't isa. And who knows what will happen in the future? Although, hindi maayos kung paano kami naghiwalay, kahit ako, hindi ko isinasara ang posibilidad na bumalik iyong nararamdaman namin sa isa't isa."

Chad's smile slowly vanished. Bumaba naman ang tingin ko sa kanang kamay ko na hawak niya. Mas humigpit ang hawak niya ro'n. See. He was also aware of that possibility.

"Kahit sino'ng nasa relasyon, aware na hindi mo dapat hayaang magkasama ang ex ng karelasyon mo." Napabuntong hininga ako bago ibinalik ang tingin kay Chad. "It's safer to have another woman than asking for my help, Chad. I'm still the ex. I don't think you should also be this comfortable to me. Dapat nagseselos ka o nagagalit gaya ng normal na reaksyon ng iba. How can you be so calm about this?"

Chad chuckled before he ran his hand through his curly hair. Binitawan niya ang kamay ko bago umayos nang pagkakaupo. Kinuha niya ang bowl ng strawberry at chocolate na dala niya at ipinatong sa kaniyang kandungan. Saka siya sumandal sa sofa habang diretso ang tingin.

"Joshaia only loves me for the past two years, Ven. He loves a gay...which even he couldn't understand. He always tell me he will no longer love a woman because I already completed him." Chad dipped a strawberry on the chocolate before taking a bite on it. After chewing it, he continued what he was saying, "He always tell me, I am the only one he needs. He is happy and contented with me."

Napangiti ako sa sinabi ni Chad. That's exactly how Joshaia Stephen when he's in love. Hindi niya inaalis ang buo niyang atensyon sa taong mahal niya. He will only see you.

Gano'n din siya sa akin noon.

Hindi maayos ang pagtatapos ng meron sa akin at matinding sakit ang dinanas ko noong kami pa, pero hindi ko itatanggi na grabe magmahal si Steph.

"Then, why are you having doubts? For two years Chad, hindi siya tumingin sa iba. Nandito pa rin kayong dalawa, magkasama at matatag. Why? Why do you have to involve a third party?"

Chad didn't answer. Kumain lang siya nang kumain hanggang sa naubos na ang strawberries sa bowl na dala niya. Nakakunot ang noong pinanood ko lang naman siya. I could not understand what's happening, really.