Life Is A Nightmare

Chapter Twenty Two: Undeniable Consequnces

"Wh- what did you do to my dad?" the words come out foreign and choked. My voice is small and doesn't sound like my own. "Where is he?"

He smiles a sickening smile once again as if everything I just said was hysterical. "What would make you think I did anything?" he laughs.

"You've been following me." I let the words rush out more scared the longer I stand between him and the feet of space between us becomes nonexistent.

He takes a step forward and I step back against the door, "Whatever are you talking about Gavin?" he questions, "Do I," he points to himself, "honestly come across as a bad guy?"

His dark expression shifting to dismay as if he is honestly offended at what I just said that is until the same crazy look in his eyes returns just as fast.

"You killed Vivian." the words slip out before I have a chance to reconsider what I'm saying or what my words may lead to.

His smile twists into an unwelcoming expression I'm terrified of. "And I'd do it again too."

"Why?" I ask not sure I want to know the answer. This is what I've wanted. I wanted to find out the truth of why but now as I stand here waiting I wish this was a nightmare and not real life.

"Why not?" he retorts, "I got what I wanted and I would have a perfect life if you didn't have to interfere. Don't get me wrong I had my fun messing with you in the beginning. Convincing you you're crazy to get you to stop digging into something that wasn't your concern but the fun and games have gotten tiring. See I have plans, big plans with Jayden and I don't need you getting in the way more than you've already have."

"What are you going to do?" I dare ask.

"Well if I told you it wouldn't be any fun now would it?" Jordan says with a sinister look in his eyes.

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(Jonhathan)

I don't remember when I began to fall into the past and never come back up for air in the present. It's as if I never left the past as it lingered to the surface until it grabbed its hooks into me pulling me back. Dragging me to the place I felt comfortable so many years I couldn't let go. Couldn't survive with a life that was actually better than I could imagine.

I guess I do know, it was the day Jayden was charged with murder. The police came and informed me Vivian was dead in the same house I spent six years in with Jayden and he was responsible for her death. I didn't want to look at him, didn't want to hear his excuse or reason. I couldn't bear the thought to know she was gone and the happiness I grown accustomed to was nonexistent anymore.

Looking back I was a horrible dad. I hated my son and blamed him for what happened. I couldn't be there for him when he needed me the most because I was drowning in pain. Depression anchoring me down it was impossible to get through every day until I told myself it was impossible. How could what they said be possible? How could he hurt his sister he would do anything for? How could he be just like Jared?

I went through a dark state of my life. Watching everything I loved disappear before my eyes. Vivian was gone. Jayden was convicted of her murder. And Chris ended our relationship along with taking full custody of Gavin.

I was alone. I had no one until I got in contact with Jared. He's always been there. He's never left my side when I needed someone the most. I can visit him when I want and talk to him since there isn't anyone preventing us from communicating and in a sense looking back maybe letting the past back in wasn't a good idea.

I've become this person living day by day in a dark depression. My mind always trying to stay in the past. Reliving what happened, replaying what I could do different. Not letting me live every day to the fullest but to the point I'm breaking inside. I've lost who I am trying to fix what I've done. I'm a lousy dad. Pathetic and weak to let myself be pulled back into a relationship that only hurt me.