The Song of My Soul

Chapter 20

(Dipper pov)

I adjust the collar of my shirt as I look at my reflection in the bathroom mirror. "I look like a freaking dork with the glasses."

"You look perfectly fine, Mason. You sure you don't want one of my ties?"

"It isn't a super formal thing dad. I'll be fine."

"Well I know you'll be amazing. We should get going though, don't want to be late."

"You mean you don't want to be late to work."

I pull on the dress shoes before leaving the apartment and getting in his car. He gets in the driver's side. "Mason, you know it isn't like that. If I could be there I would. You know this."

"I know.....it just sucks. I hardly see you anymore."

"I know but now that I am the only person financially supporting us-"

"Doesn't mom have to pay child support now that you two are apart?"

"No because of the fact that Mabel lives with her. You know this."

"I know that I know, that doesn't mean I like it."

"Mason-"

"Can we please just get going? Bill and Kill are waiting for me."

Without another word he drives me to the school. I get out of his car and head towards the gymnasium, peeking in but not quite going in yet. I honestly never bothered to go to school dances before since I didn't really have any friends.

"So you came to this after all."

I feel my blood freeze as I turn and see Robbie in a black button up shirt and jeans. "W-why are you here?"

"Mabel invited me and alumni are allowed to come if invited. I suggest you go home if you can't handle it."

"I....I am going to press charges against you for what you did....."

"Statue of limitations doesn't let that happen."

"Maybe not that incident but it covers what happened at the party."

"What are you talking about?"

"You fucking tried to rape me while I was alone and drunk."

"That isn't the way I remember it." He goes to walk by me but stops once we're shoulder to shoulder. "Pretty sure no one will listen to you once I explain to them that you just got drunk and came on to me before your friends who were wasted as well assaulted me."

He walks into the gymnasium as I lean back against some lockers and slowly slide to the ground, taking my glasses off as I close my eyes to keep the tears of frustration in.

"Dipper?" I look up seeing the blurry figure of Bill kneeling in front of me wearing yellow of course. "Are you okay? We're going to be on in a few minutes."

"Yeah, I just needed a minute."

"You know, if you really aren't ready we don't have to do this. We can just back out and go to my place for the night."

"It's okay, I am ready for this and more importantly I want to do this."

He puts my glasses back on my face as he helps me to my feet. "Let's show them what you're made of then."

Taking my hand he pulls me through the gymnasium and onto a makeshift stage, Kill already getting his bass set up.

I get my guitar ready just as the Student Council President announces us. Bill sits behind his dums as I step up to the mic feeling like my throat was closing up.

"Get off the stage, you four eyed freak!" I hear Mabel yell from the back, several people around her laughing as well.

"Hey, why don't you just fucking shut up bitch." Kill says back.

I give him a small smile before I finally manage to get words out. "These songs are ones that I wrote so they probably aren't great. This first one is to....to Robbie Valentino. The emo freak who half assed it tonight. You all know him." I see several people give Robbie as he glares at me before Kill starts us off.

"Well, good for you, I guess you moved on really easily
You found a new girl, and it only took a couple weeks
Remember when you said that you wanted to give me the world? (Ah-ah-ah-ah)
And good for you, I guess that you've been working on yourself
I guess that therapist I found for you, she really helped
Now you can be a better man for your brand-new girl

Well, good for you, you look happy and healthy
Not me, if you ever cared to ask
Good for you, you're doing great out there without me, baby
God, I wish that I could do that
I've lost my mind, I've spent the night
Crying on the floor of my bathroom
But you're so unaffected, I really don't get it
But I guess good for you

Well, good for you, I guess you're getting everything you want (ah)
You bought a new car and your career's really taking off (ah)
It's like we never even happened
Baby, what the fuck is up with that? (Ha)
And good for you, it's like you never even met me
Remember when you swore to God I was the only
Person who ever got you?
Well, screw that and screw you
You will never have to hurt the way you know that I do

Well, good for you, you look happy and healthy
Not me, if you ever cared to ask
Good for you, you're doing great out there without me, baby
God, I wish that I could do that
I've lost my mind, I've spent the night
Crying on the floor of my bathroom
But you're so unaffected, I really don't get it
But I guess good for you

Maybe I'm too emotional
But your apathy is like a wound in salt
Maybe I'm too emotional
Or maybe you never cared at all
Maybe I'm too emotional
Your apathy is like a wound in salt
Maybe I'm too emotional
Or maybe you never cared at all

Well, good for you, you look happy and healthy
Not me, if you ever cared to ask
Good for you, you're doing great out there without me, baby
Like a damn sociopath!
I've lost my mind, I've spent the night
Crying on the floor of my bathroom
But you're so unaffected, I really don't get it
But I guess good for you"

I watch Robbie and Mabel both walk out while everyone else around them applauds and cheers.