Soldier Of Pain (Bucky Barns Fanfiction) [COMPLETED STORY]

Chapter 14 - Torturous Ignoring

A/N: I know the love story is moving super slowly, but I promise it will get better in the next chapter.

The song above gives me major Bucky vibes in this chapter, so I thought you could listen to it while you read or something like that.

Anyway, Enjoy Reading! =)

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Bucky's POV.

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These past few weeks have been total torture. Y/n has completely stopped talking to me.

I knew this would happen. Steve kept encouraging me to tell her the truth. The truth about how I feel about her. How I love her.

I kept telling Steve that it was a stupid idea, because she could never feel the same way about me, and that will only ruin our friendship.

But after Y/n overheard me confessing to Steve, my biggest fear became a reality.

I hurts to think she is so freaked out by me that she now refuses to even look me in the eyes. But it hurts even more to think I did this. I hurt her, and I hate myself for that.

It's obvious she's been ignoring me. Even avoiding me, which is even worse. I kept trying to talk to her, hoping we could try and go back to how things were before, but she kept brushing me off.

I don't think I truly know when I fell for her. Maybe it was when we lived together in Bucharest, maybe it was long before that in Hydra. It doesn't matter. All I care about is her. How she feels. How she is safe and cared for.

So it's better to just let the sleeping dogs lie. If Y/n wants to avoid me, then I won't add to her stress and convince her otherwise. That will only make things worse. I don't want her to completely hate me. I don't want to hurt her even more then I already have.

Y/n seems happier now. Happier without me. And her gorgeous smile only adds to her beauty. Just the sight of her makes me crave being close to her. So eventually I decided it was easier to avoid her completely, the same way she did with me.

Now I spend most of my days, alone, in my room, wallowing in my own self pity.

But that has only made things worse. I miss her more now. More then I did before. It also made me love her more, if that was even possible to begin with. And I'm not sure how much longer I can pretend it isn't real, how much longer I can keep avoiding her.

"We should do something fun tonight! All of us!" Natasha randomly shouts from where she is in the living room, so Steve and I can hear her from the Kitchen.

"What do you mean?!" Steve shouts back, looking at me in confusion.

I just shrug my shoulders. What makes him think I know what Natasha is up to?

"Come in here and find out!" She calls out.

Steve gets up off the kitchen barstool and motions for me to follow him. We then join the rest of the ex-avengers in the living room.

My eyes instantly glance to look at Y/n, as if by reflex.

I immediately try to look away again, but it's difficult to do so when she looks so goddamn beautiful.

"She wants to go to a club and party," Wanda reveals for Natasha.

"We need to let loose, have some fun for once, lately all we have been doing is chilling around the house and training," Natasha explains.

"You've been spending to much time around Stark," Wanda jokes to Natasha, bumping their shoulders together.

"I think that's a great idea," Clint adds his opinion.