Soldier Of Pain (Bucky Barns Fanfiction) [COMPLETED STORY]

Chapter 18 - Fifth-Sense

A/N: This chapter is really short, so sorry for that.

I also really liked writing this chapter as well. So hope you Enjoy Reading! =)

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"Someone needs to talk to her." I hear Scott say from the other room.

I cover my ears with my hands, hoping that will block out what they are saying.

"Y/n?" I hear Bucky's soft voice from the other side of the door, minutes later.

"Go away!" I somehow manage to scream out between my sobs.

"I'm sorry. I should have know you'd be scared. If I were in your shoes I would have lost it along time ago. I'm proud of how far you have made it and how brave you have been."

"I said go away!"

"I shouldn't have shouted at you. That was wrong. I only made things worse. And I'm sorry, I really am. I understand what you're going thought and I want to help."

"I don't want to do this!" I cry out.

"I know that. But if you try and it goes well, you will never need to live in this fear ever again. But if you don't try this, then you will forever live in that fear because you don't know the truth."

"But what if I try and it goes wrong and I hurt myself or even worse someone else." I stay quiet after that, my cries being the only thing audible to my ears while I wait for Bucky to say something.

"Y/n, please unlock the door." He finally speaks a while later. "Or I will force it open."

"I told you I don't want to do this!" I respond, my voice breaking.

"I know that and I'm not going to force you to do anything. I just want to talk properly." Bucky whispers through the door.

I slowly crawl back to my feet and to the door. I unlock it but leave it shut. I then collapse back to the floor.

Bucky then opens the door and locks it behind him when he is fully in the bathroom. He sits down beside me on the floor and wraps his arms around me, curling my body against his.

"What if I hurt you?" I murmur.

"Then I guess I'll get hurt. But I volunteered to do this, knowing the risks. Knowing how much it will hurt me. But I want to sacrifice that. I don't care if I get hurt."

"No. Don't say that. I need you. I don't know how I will be able to function without you. I don't even want to imagine my life without you in it."

"I love you too. But Everyday you pretend to be happy, and obviously you're not. You spend every second of everyday in fear. And It will always be like that until we fix this. I hate seeing how much it pains you. I can't even begin to imagine it. But if there is even a slight change at fixing that, and it means hurting myself really badly then I am very happy to sacrifice myself for that. All I want is to see even a small smile on your face, and one that isn't faked to make everyone believe you're not in pain."

"I still don't like the idea of you doing this for me." I repeat for what feels like the tenth time.

"I meant what I said the other night. I will do anything for you." Bucky smiles, trying to reassure me.

"I don't think I am strong enough to do this." I tell him with honesty.

"Yes you are. You're the strongest person I know." He strokes my hair with his metal fingers.

I look up into Bucky's steel blue eyes, hoping to find an answer in the comfort of them.

"Fine, I'll do it." I give in.