The Girl Aria (A Stray Kids Fanfiction)

Chapter 20

On the car ride home, we weren't too talkative. It made me a little bit nervous as to why he always seemed so quiet around me, but I was getting used to just accepting it for who he was. I was curious as to what he had been like before my arrival. My mind was drawn from the subject as I still felt the throb in my wrists left by Hyo. Gently, I lifted up the cuff of my jacket to see if they had been damaged. I didn't suspect any huge trauma, so I wasn't too worried. I glanced down, trying to hide it from Lee Know's occasional glance over. They were beginning to bruise. It was turning a red color which would soon fade into purple. I flexed my wrist a few times, and I almost cried out when the action sent additional pain into my wrists. I quickly stopped examining them and substituted by folded my arms together. Suddenly, Lee Know's phone rang abruptly, making my heart skip a beat. He quickly picked up his phone which he unplugged from the USB cable, placing it next to his right ear.

"Hello, this is Lee Know." He stated, eyes still trained on the road, on hand on the steering wheel. I strained my ears to try to make out what the person on the other end might be saying. Luckily for me, I didn't have to concentrate because the person was practically screaming.

"LEE KNOW OPPA!!!" Struggling with his one hand, Lee Know immediately hung up. I looked at him quizzically, trying almost not to laugh by the disgusted look on his face.

"Was that your girlfriend or something?" I felt a friendly smirk come across my face. Although Lee Know didn't look amused.

"No. It was a stupid Sasaeng fan." He gripped the steering-wheel tighter, annoyance evident in his features.

"What's a Sasaeng fan?" I inquired, glancing out the window as the city life passed by me.

"They are basically stalkers who obsesses over their favorite idols. Other idols get stuff like this all the time." It creeped me out to think that there were literal human beings who could find your number or any personal information about you and just strait up call you.

"How often do you get them?"

"Almost everyday." It must be stressful to put up with people like that on a daily basis. Talk about personal space. I guess you could say that's what scared me if I ever did become famous. Having to deal with things like these, death threats, and all the other lovely stuff that probably went around on the media.

"If I continue to pursue singing, will that happen to me?" There was no way on earth I could ever look forward to something of that nature. Lee Know bit his lip, hesitating as if he were trying to find the right words that wouldn't disturb me. No matter how he would say it, I knew it was going to bother me.

"That's one of the lows of being famous. But it also comes with many highs." Sure, you could say his words were true, but the real question was which one was there more of? These questions I could not answer, nor did I know if I would ever be able to solve them.

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We pulled up to the dorm and headed inside. I was still processing my thoughts to the point where I felt like I was going to have a mental breakdown. Stress suddenly overwhelmed me and that fear of the unknown took dominance. Lee Know swung the door open and we were greeted with ear shattering excitement. We quickly made our way inside, closing the door behind us in a struggling manner.

I had never seen them so excited. It made me feel all warm to see them so happy and getting along with each other. Han and Hyunjin were practically feeding off of each others excitement, both enthusiastically jumping up and down while looking at me with eagerness to hear what my reaction on all this was. Seungmin seemed pretty chill, but I could tell by the smile on his face that he was very eager to hear all the details as well. The rest were all very hyped and I felt myself becoming shy, cheeks flushed pink.