019-Trigger

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by Elexxandria

by Elexxandria

I was doing totally okay
Smiling althrough out the day,
Laughing at corny jokes
finding games that I could play

But all that vanished in a snap
I became lost without a map
and before I knew it
I fell right into a trap

I didn't actually realize
that it will be my own demise
He pulled the trigger
And I then paid the price

I thought I was okay
but turns out, there's a delay
The pain of our past remains
and I was hit by it's cruel ray

Am I still in love? No.
He caused this rage to grow
And because of that
I now see him as a foe

He is the trigger
to all the issues I suffer
It's all too painful
That I can't seem to recover

I said that I was okay
But that event after May
Ruined little ol' me
In ways that I can't say

12/12/21 1:53 pm