Say The Word

Chapter 27- Well, That Got Dark (Part Two, Because One Part Is Not Enough)

Their hands mapped every inch of my back. Our lips were pressed together, their soft supple lips on mine, my neck craned to meet theirs, my jaw locked in place. I could not see anything; the only thing I felt was just the kiss and the burning sensation in me. We should have been talking about how Ceb has a dried up patch of blood on them. Yet, there we were, under hot sun, only a shadow to shelter us from the sun, exposed. Ceb travelled to the front, their hand ghosting over my sweating body, lightly marking it, making me every strand of hair on me stand.

The very next moment my back was glued to the cool concrete, our lips still connected. My heart thrashed around in my chest, I was sure Ceb could feel it with them being on top of me. The kiss was broken. I opened my eyes to see Ceb's pupils blown with want, as I gasped for air as quietly as possible, in fear of them pointing out that I had indeed forgotten how to breathe.

Their knee planted on each side of my waist, trapping me underneath them. All I could focus on was those wet lips, red and swollen from our kiss.

"Again," they breathed out.

With that, they dived back in for another kiss. This time, the tip of their tongue touched mine, slowly introducing itself. I melted. Both my hands naturally locked themselves onto the other person's neck, pulling them closer. They soon find themselves on their back, feeling up all the fresh bandages. Ceb busied themself too; caressing my every part.

"We should," I gasped, when our tongues finally unravelled. "Talk about the injury."

"Don't wanna. Nothing to worry about, nothing to talk about either," they said, bitterly.

"Can you not just tell me what had happened...?" The question came out as a mere whisper.

"You already know what's going on with me, don't you? You're smart enough to piece everything together, geep. Not everything has to be said out loud, you realise that, right?"

"Yeah, sorry, I was just worried."

"Don't be, 'm getting out of that hellhole soon, my brother's coming along, so don't worry. I just gotta be fucking patient."

All I could give them as a reply was a short hum. There were so much uncertainty behind those eyes, I was not sure if they were trying to convince me or themself. I watched, still on the floor, Ceb picking themself up and getting dressed. They did not say much, a sense of loneliness laced over them.

Oh, lord, if only I knew of the uncertainty was correct and they were not fooling me or themselves with those words that were supposedly to be convincing.

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"He's not here again today," Sumi shrugged, gesturing towards Ceb's empty desk. The tiny girl stood in front of my desk, towering over me, her shadow darkening the books in front of me. Yes...again...absent. I did not even have the energy to even look up at her. Lying on top of my arm with my face on the side I could only give her a half-hearted grunt in reply. I suppose they could handle themself just fine, yet something was bugging me, something was not right. Something was, as one would put it, off. It was my worry speaking, I told myself. Who was I fooling? Not me, that was undeniably true.

My eyelids shielded my eyes from the distracting outside world, making me only focus on the things going on internally. Sumi's ranting became nothing but a simple background noise. I had been thinking about a lot, Ceb aside, there was Elly. More specifically, what she had said to me at the greenhouse that night. It was not my place to say anything about giving up trying to make Ceb see her efforts, that much was clear. The look in her eyes, the pain in her voice, the sorrow surrounding her. Letting go something you have held on to so many years is such a hard thing and she was willing to just do it.