DARK SIDE

DS>1

FANFICTION
not related on anything.
not related on their lives
just nothing!
wag masyadong ma-hanash wag basahin pag di bet!

"alam mo mars tama na yan, hindi na nakakabuti sayo eh" grace grab the bottle of beer i holding right now.

isa...dalawa...tatlo...apat....lima

at pang anim.

"don't touch me grace, let me do this. i can handle myself" i said while my head is on the table already.

i don't want to hear anything, gusto ko ako muna. mapagisa.

"irene ano ba, sisirain mo ba talaga ang buhay mo." she shout.

i look at her.

"oo, para saan pa bat nabubuhay ako kung paulit ulit lang din naman akong nasasaktan? sana nga isang bagsakan nalang, yung tipong pag pikit ko tapos na. wala na" i wiped my tears.

i don't care if my body is wet already because of the beer that always splitting in my body.

the fucking all men always have those kind of self-sufficient.

how about us? how about those people around them. HOW ABOUT ME

pagod na ako. hindi ko na alam kung paano pa ako lalaban kung paulit ulit lang din.

para nga akong nag papaikot ng roleta eh sa sobrang paulit ulit.

it's always the same situation with a same circumstances, it's like a fucking curse!!!

"itigil mo na to, tama na. wake up" she grab my shoulder and make my gaze turn to her.

"wag mong sirain ang buhay mo sa paulit ulit na dahilan sa iisang lalaki" she shout that make me dropped the bottle of the beer na i was holding.

it's shattered already, parang puso ko wasak na wasak na, durog na durog na and especially pagod na.

pero kahit gaano kasakit hindi ko parin magawang bumitaw, nakalimutan ko narin kaseng kalimutan ka.

tell me! how can i forget you if you are the only man in my life that i love.

"sorry" i blurted before i felt so much dizziness, i know i'm okay right now but i'm not sure tomorrow if i'm.

"shsss it's okay" she open her arms for me and she was about to hug me when i suddenly puke in her shirt.

what a bad behaviour is this.

"are you okay?" she asked me i slowly nood before my sight turn into black because of dizziness and over unconscious.

i close my eyes while she was holding me.

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a sun ray sunshine woke me up, i open my eyes.

i put my palm in my head when i felt so much headache because of hangover.

i rolled my eyes to define where i am.

i see how ate imee staring at me.

"mabuti naman nagising ka na, nag alala kami sayo because grace call us last night about your doings and behaviour. nagpakalasing ka sa bahay niya. nakakahiya" ate imee emitted.

i just shooked my head before i rolled my eyes. as if hindi niya to gawain before..

"ate she's my best friend and she told me na i can freely do whatever i want in their house. come on ate i'm not child anymore i'm 23 already let me do whatever i want" i stop.

"and please can you leave my life alone!! i can take care of myself. i know my limitations. you don't need to worry about me everytime. ops did i miss something? oh yeah i remember that for the nth time your still faking everything, imee is still the imee you know" i said. she sarcastically gasped.

"whatever you say irene mali parin ang ginawa mo, hindi mo na ginalang ang pamilya ng kaibigan mo" she shout that get me pissed off.

what the heck is she think she's doing

"teka nga, what's your point doing this kind of asshole?" i stood up and walked near to her.

i see how her face turn into serious one. ohh that's new ate

"your really an stupid" she murmured i rolled my eyes.

"if yan lang ang pinunta mo you can now leave, i don't even need your fucking care" she slap me.

i look at her eyes, my tears began to formed.

"i'm sorry" she about to caressed my face when i refuse it.

"hindi ko sinasadya" she added, then my tears begin to fall. again and again

"lahat naman hindi mo sinasadya diba?  after so much 15 damn years your acting like your our big sister parin? after you leave us in this dark world." i shout.

"ate stop acting that you still care because that's made me sucks!" she glared at me

"or wait did i need to remind you about how you left me? as i remember i'm begging.. i'm crying but you still didn't care aren't you?"

she look at me directly, her tears start to fall.

"ginawa ko yun para sainyo ni bong that's why look at you now your both grow successful" she emitted, she's sobbing.

"kung pera lang din ang nagpapaikot sa pamilyang to, wag nalang. hindi ko na kailangan ng pera mo" i shout then she slapped me once again.

this time is so mean.

mas galit, mas ramdam.

"wala kang alam, ang alam mo lang yung sarili mo. ni hindi mo manlang ako tinanong kung okay lang ba ako? how dare you to say that kind of words on me, after all of my sacrifices?!!  after all this year ayan pa ang isusukli mo?" she aggressively shout while her eyes is full of tears.

hindi ko na alam kung tama pa ba. may tama pa ba ate?

"kailangan pa ba naming magpasalamat?lumuhod? because of this kind of shelter? magarbong bahay? magandang kotse puno ng pera?" i stop then i look at her eyes.

"aanhin ko ang lahat ng ito kung kadikit naman nito ang impyernong dala mo?" I resentful response.

she walked to approach me.

were just inch apart.

"someday you will know about this, all of this irene... details by details.. bukas na ang flight ko, goodbye. kailangan ko pang magpahinga" she said then she slammed the door.

i just cover my face because of the tears that keep falling down.

kasalanan ko bang magtanim ng loob sa mga taong di marunong tumanggap ng katotohanan? o baka ako talaga ang hindi marunong tumanggap?