Under The Influence {Editing}

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Shawnie's POV

"You look so beautiful pregnant, Mami." Aubrey says slowly rubbing my belly. I glanced up at him in the mirror in front of us. We were sitting in the bathtub. He was behind me and I had my head resting against him, with my eyes closed. I was just enjoying the vibe of it all.

"Why do you call me Mami? Where did that come from?" I ask

"I don't know. I just called you that one day and it just stuck with me." He replies, "Why?"

"No reason. I was just curious..."

I asked because Aubrey isn't the first person to call me that and it is something that drew to him. I hadn't heard it in years, and it was a name I loved. It was a name that when I heard it I felt loved. And I loved who it was coming from.

"I love you, do you know that?" Aubrey says breaking into my thoughts, kissing my shoulder and talking in my ear.

"Yes, I know you do. I mean come on, you married me without a prenup." I say laughing.

"That's how much I love you." He says seriously, "Anything that's mine, you can have. I can't prove my love to you any other way." He says, now kissing my neck.

"You can prove how much you love me in any way you want." I say smiling, eyes still closed.

"I know you don't care about my money, but I'm still going to give you access to my millions. Do you love me, Mami?" He asks

I nod my head, "You know I do. I wouldn't have blown my life up for you. I wouldn't be taking all of this bullshit from everyone." I say.

"And I'm going to continue to shield you from that. I hate that people talk about you how they do. I know it bothers you, but you take that shit, but I'm going to protect you in every way that I can." He says, still rubbing on me.

"I'm going to do the same. I don't need people to understand why I did what I did. I just know that I'm happy with you and this is where I want to be." I say

"You don't have to explain yourself. Let them talk. They don't know us personally. Fuck them." He says

"I know. I was taught to not talk to them, which is alright but that still doesn't help any situation. I have kind of learned through you that it's okay to say something every now and then just to shut them up."

"Pretty much..."

I don't say anything else, I just sit there thinking about my life over the past few years. I went from being nobody, to being in two high profile relationships. I was just a lawyer in Chicago, minding my business and just trying to make a name for myself. Now fast forward to almost 4 years later and I am someone that a lot of people know. My social media has gone from a couple thousand followers, to over 1.4 million. This shit is so crazy to me and it was a huge adjustment, I'm still adjusting. I'm grateful for Chris in the beginning of all of this exposure, because honestly I would not have been able to do it without him. He taught me a way to deal with all of this that works for him. I'm not gonna say it didn't necessarily work for me, but I came out on the side of that relationship being someone who was portrayed to not talk. And I talked a lot. I was mute when it came to the media because of who I was with. Chris is very secretive and there's nothing wrong with that, he has the right to want to protect his privacy as well as Aubrey. I followed his lead when it came to that because that's what he wanted.

Aubrey taught me to be confident in who I am and acknowledge the success that I have now. He says it's okay to express my feelings and make a comment here and there. People are going to have something to say negative or positive about anything that you do. Aubrey has helped me find a certain level of confidence that I know I was lacking. Things that the media says still bothers me a little bit but I like that he shields me from certain things and he instilled in me that I need to live my life and stop worrying so much. They're going to talk regardless.