Under The Influence {Editing}

Damage

Chris POV

"Fuck!" I shouted

She's going to kill me. I can't go home like this.

I was panicking a little bit. I had to go home, I couldn't stay out. Man, I fucked up. Big time.

I hurried home and when I got upstairs, I saw that she was in bed sleeping. I took a shower, threw on some boxers and quietly got in bed with her. She must've felt the bed move because she rolled over and opened her eyes.

"Hey!" She smiles and reaches for me.

"Hey baby." I move closer to her and she wraps her arms around me.

"Did you have fun tonight?" She asks

"Uh, Nah, not really. Why you ask that?" I ask feeling she knows something.

"Because you were out later than you said you would be." She says kissing my chin.

"Oh. Yeah. I missed you though." I say trying to change the subject.

"I missed you too. I couldn't wait to get back to you. Three and a half weeks is too long to go without you. I got used to being with you all the time." She says and I instantly feel guilty. How the hell am I going to break this news to her. I worked so hard to get her to this point where she's comfortable enough to be open and honest with me. She's okay with her feelings she has for me and this is the bullshit I got myself into? I can't believe this shit. She isn't going to forgive me for this. I know she isn't. We're done. I already know it. Fuck!

"Me too." I say as she snuggles into me, making herself comfortable.

"I have good news!" She says

"What?"

"Congratulations, she's not pregnant with your baby." She says and that's somewhat a relief, even thought I knew she wasn't but I just felt nervous about it anyway.

"I told you." Is all I say

"I know you did but we had to get the official results. I won't doubt you again. If you say something, I'm going to trust that you're telling the truth." She says and I'm just feeling like shit.

"Goodnight babe." I kiss her on her forehead.

"Goodnight." She says

I don't know what I'm going to do. I know there's going to be a story out tomorrow, what the hell am I supposed to tell her when she sees Diamond in my car? And I stayed out later than I said I would. She's going to automatically assume I was with her. There's no way I can clean this up. No way, whatsoever.

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I'm fucked up. I'm scared as fuck. I don't know what Shawnie is going to do or how she's going to react. I have to tell her because I don't want her to read it anywhere. It might be better coming from me. I just don't know how to tell her. How do you tell your girl you "kinda" cheated on her. You can't. Yeah, I stopped her from doing it and nothing really happened, but knowing how she's going to react, I might as well had cheated.

I woke up super early, well I didn't really sleep. I got in around 2 am and it's now 6:30 am. I've pretty much been laying here, while she's been sleeping. I've been trying to think about what I'm going to say to her. I know I have to keep her phone away from her and we can't watch tv, just in case it's on TMZ Live.

I slipped out of bed without waking her. I walked over to her side of the bed and took her phone off of the nightstand. I put the phone on silent and hide it in my dresser drawer. I'll give it back to her after I talk to her. I quietly get back in the bed. She began moving around and I wrap my arms back around her, pulling her onto my chest.