Shawnie's POV
The car ride back to his house was silent. He didn't say anything about the fight, he acted like everything was okay, so I had no choice but to just go along with it. I don't know these people and I don't know the dynamic of their relationships, so who am I to challenge it. I trust Chris and I trust his judgement....to a certain extent.
I've been trying to be more open and honest with myself, with this whole Chris situation. I can't deny my feelings for him, although I've tried. So, instead of fighting it, I'm trying to embrace them. I know I like to stay in my bubble, but I'm going to stop holding back. Chris seems like he's into this for real and there's no need for me to keep pushing him away. I'm going to be more present and available to and for him, from now on.
Once we got to the house, he pulled his car into the garage, opened my door for me to get out of the car and he went into the house and disappeared. I went upstairs, showered, took off my makeup and got into my pajamas. It had been 45 minutes and he still hadn't come up to his room. I was a little concerned but I knew he was good, probably down in his studio. I just grabbed my MacBook, got in bed and started answering some emails. It wasn't even 10 minutes later, and Chris came walking in.
"Oh hell nah. Babe, put the computer away." Chris says throwing up his hands. He hates when I work while I'm with him but he wasn't here, so he should be okay with it.
"Well you left me alone, I thought I'd get some work done."
He walks over to the bed and takes my MacBook, "I told you, I don't want you working while you're spending time with me. We discussed you working an hour out of the day while you're here and I know you got that this morning after I left." He says
"I did. I'm sorry." I say with a smile.
He sits my MacBook on his nightstand and lays in bed next to me, "Don't be sorry." He kisses me on my forehead, then pulls me into him and wraps his arms around me, "I wanted to show you something I've been working on."
"What is it?" I say and he shows me his phone.
"Song lyrics!" I take his phone and start to read them.
"You know why I am going crazy?
Because of you, only you, I
Hypnotized, you got me mesmerized with the thought of you
I'm in awe of you,
She's my medication for my heartbreak
Oh, I need her
She rehabilitates me
But I'm still addicted, yeah, to her
Living life blind but my top down, my roof missing
This kind of love only comes around in a lifetime, I can't miss it
This ain't no typical, ordinary scenario
I can't control
When opposites attract, I overdose....."
"You like it?"
"I guess, yeah. I mean, I can't hear the song because I'm just reading the lyrics but I like it."
"I'm going to record it, with this Indonesian singer, Agnez Mo." he says
"Never heard of her."
"She's cool. There's another one." He takes his phone and pulls another one up, "What do you think about this one?"
"She said can I vibe with you, baby, for a night?
I cannot say no to you, baby, you know I can't do that
Can't help my eyes, they glued to you, ooh yeah, aw yeah
Baby, you're so damn fine, I'll prove it to you, yes, I'll prove it to you
Ima show you
You deserve more
I see what you be going through
You ain't gotta hurt anymore 'cause I love you, baby
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Under The Influence {Editing}
Fanfiction🚩🚩🚩 Chris Brown is clearly someone who wears his heart on his sleeve. A very emotional person, someone who loves hard and wants the same love in return. He's someone who wants to find love, but he's looking in all the wrong places. He's dated all...
