Under The Influence {Editing}

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Shawnie's POV

I just stay like that for a few seconds staring at the ground, asking myself, the same question over and over again.

Did he really just hit me?

I look over at him, and he was pacing the floor. I hold my face, as I make it to my feet. I'm shocked, and I don't know what to say.

"I can't believe you just did that." I say almost in a whisper, looking at the ground. I'm embarrassed, and shocked as hell right now.

He didn't say anything. He doesn't even acknowledge that I just said anything to him, he just continued pacing the floor.

"Chris?" I call out but he still doesn't say anything. "CHRIS!!" I yell, snapping him out of whatever state he was in.

He runs over and grabs my by my arms, "YOU MADE ME DO IT!  YOU MADE ME DO IT!! I DID EVERYTHING FOR YOU.... YOU GOT PREGNANT, THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY BABY!! YOU'RE MINE!! I'M SORRY, I DIDN'T MEAN TO. I DIDN'T WANT TO DO IT BUT YOU MADE ME....."

I was so scared. He was shaking me, yelling at me, pulling me. I didn't know what was going on. I started crying my eyes out out of fear. Should I try to break out of his hold and run? Should I stay? Should I try to call the cops? Should I try to calm him down? I don't know, but right now, I'm scared for my life.

"CHRIS!!" I yell, trying to get him to stop and calm down. I'm trying to break out of his grip, but I can't. He has a really tight hold on me. "CHRIS, LET ME GO!!" I yell

"I DID EVERYTHING FOR YOU! I WANTED TO TAKE CARE OF YOU!! ALL I WANTED YOU TO DO WAS BE THERE FOR ME. YOU COULDN'T DO THAT....."

He pushes me back, and away from him. I stumble backwards and fall back onto the ground. He looks at me, then aggressively walks over to me. I try to get up but he pushes me back down. I sit up on my hands and knees to try to stand up, but I see him move in a way where he's about to do something else to me. Hit me, kick me, I don't know what was about to happen. I had to try to stop him, but the only thing I could do was to curl up in a ball, on the floor.

"I'M PREGNANT! I'M PREGNANT! I'M PREGNANT!" I yell, crying, hoping and praying it'll make him stop from doing whatever he was about to do.

"Wh...What?" He says

I look at him through the cracks of my fingers and he had a shocked look on his face.

"What did you say? You're pregnant?"

I remove my hands and sit up slowly, "I'm pregnant, Chris."

"Right now?" He asks

"Yes." I say and he didn't say anything for a few seconds, so I spoke. "I'm pregnant."

"You're pregnant?" He repeats. His face read disbelief.

"Yes." I say

He stared at me for a few seconds, then he spoke, "Oh my god!" He says, then reaches for me.

He helps me up off of the ground, walks me over to the kitchen table, and sits me down. He kneels down in front of me, and begins to wipe my tears, and fix my clothes and hair.

"I'm so sorry, baby." He rubs my cheek and lightly kisses it.

I was still crying and I didn't know exactly what to say. Chris hit me. He really hit me. I mean it was a slap, but that's just as bad as anything else, and I don't know what he was doing to do to me if I hadn't yelled I was pregnant. My thoughts were interrupted by Chris speaking.

"Baby, say something."

Say something? That's what he has to say? I don't have words.

"I honestly don't have anything to say. I'm in shock." I say