Under The Influence {Editing}

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Chris POV

I sat there on my knees for a few minutes, thinking. She's really about to leave me, this is it, it's over. She just walked away from me, when I just begged her to stay. She saw me get teary-eyed and she still walked way.

It was like a switch turned on, I felt that shit. I was about to snap.

"This can't be over and I'm not going to let her leave me. She ain't going no fucking where." I said out loud. "We have to work this out. I can't just let things end this way. I have too much love for her to let this shit just end right now." I add

I picked myself up off of the ground and I go upstairs, where she was. When I got into my bedroom, she was sitting on my bed, with her back to me, crying. It broke my heart to see her like this and I did this to her, again. I hate it when she cries. I feel like shit.

"Babe?" I say standing on my side of the bed.

"Chris—."

I cut her off, "I don't want to lose you."

She doesn't say anything, she just sat there crying.

"I think we can work this out, if you just stay. Stay here, don't leave. I'll give you your space and when you're ready, we can talk but I know you love me and I know you don't want to end things between us. If you really feel there's no way we can work this out, then you can go but if there is, all I'm asking you to do is stay and we can get through this together. I leave to go on tour and I need to make sure we're good. I can't leave things like this....unless you come with me."

She still doesn't say anything for a second, then she speaks, "I'm not going."

"Okay. You can stay in my room, I'll sleep in one of the other bedrooms." I say as I walk over to my dresser and take out her phone and laptop out of one of the drawers. As I'm taking it out, I feel her phone vibrate, in my hand. I look at the screen and it says, "Aubrey". What the fuck is he texting her for?

I contemplated saying something but I don't think I should. It took everything in me not to say anything. This isn't the time, so I have to let it slide for now because I want to know why he's texting my girl and why does she even have his number in her personal phone, it should be in her business phone, that's what I bought it for.

I walk back over to the bed and place them next to her, "I'll leave you alone. If you want to talk, I'm just in the other room. Just come talk to me, please." I say, then I walk out of my room, closing the door behind me.

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I laid in bed awake. I was kind of scared to go to sleep. I felt like she would sneak out, but I knew she needed her time. I hadn't heard anything from her in hours. I haven't even heard any kind of noise coming from my room at all.

My nerves were shot and I was going through a lot of emotions. I decided to calm myself down, so smoked a blunt and took a couple of shots of Henny. I tried distracting myself by playing on the PlayStation for a while but that didn't work. This situation and her silence was killing me and I couldn't stop thinking about it, so I took a Percocet, to help me go to sleep.

After about an hour, I finally begin to drift off to sleep and I feel her get in bed with me. She got under the covers and laid her head on my chest, and wrapped her arms around me. My arms just instantly went around her. I held her tightly, as she did the same. Maybe I do have a chance on fixing this. Maybe she does wanna work things out with me but I can't keep fucking around and get myself into trouble. This is a wake up call. I have to make a change because I can't keep doing this to her.