LS#1: Ride me in court, Love✓

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I'll protect you at any cost

KOA'S POV

I arrived in our house in exact 8pm, Mamshie invited me to eat dinner but I said that I'm already full–full of pain hahaha.

He do made me realize that I just belong to that friends of HIM, that is a reason why I can't have any kind of chance towards him haha.

I bounce myself into my bed and stared at the window, closing and opening it by the strong force of wind; I deeply breathe out.

"Do I don't like as the girl you imagined? Does those decisions of yours will never change as time goes by?" I desperately wiped the tears that started to fall into my pillow. "Do I have any chance? Or should I say, I'm having just a glimpse of illusion that you'll give me a chance?"

I stood up and wiped my tears as they fall and fall continuously– I started reading another articles for me to forget about the thing we did earlier but my stupid mind keep telling and reminiscing the stuff we had. The kiss we had! The second kiss that means so worse to imagined.

Maybe I'm just into expressing my love yet he doesn't feel that same? Hahaha, I knew it. */sobs; I'll never be that kind of girl. I'm not slim, I'm not sexy, I'm not tall and I'm not having that cute and chinita skin tone. I'll never be the girl he wants.

I got bored that's why I just let myself relaxed to my bed when someone knocked on. "Come in." My short state, it's Mamshie.

"What's wrong? Is it all about him again?"

"Yes."

She also lay her head besides me. "What happen?"

"We accidentally kiss earlier yet he said he'll never love me because I'm his fvcking FRIEND!" Lalo akong na-imbyerna nang marinig ko na sa akin pa nang-galing ang salitang "Kaibigan". My nerves are wrecking.

"Why don't you just confess and say the truth that you're into him?! You're making yourself too hard on him." She leaned into my shoulders and brushing my hair. "Malay mo nahihiya siya kaya niya sinasabi yun kasi wala din siyang lakas para sabihin na malay mo may pag-asa ka sa kanya."

Sa kaka-ganyan ng nanay ko kaya ako nagiging makapal ang mukha ko sa harapan ni Orion dahil sa nakakalintek na advice na yan e. */rolled eyes; kapag yan, fake and untested idea? Nako na lang talaga.

"I asked him about his ideal girl. Do you know what he did answer to me?" Lumingon ako kay Mamshie at isang mapait na ngiti sa harapan niya.

"What did he just said?" She asked innocently and keep brushing my hair.

"I had the attitude that he likes but he never imagined me as the girl he describes." Silence occupied the whole atmosphere of my bed room. "Now tell me, Mamsh. Do I need to confess my feelings for him kung alam ko na sa sarili kong hindi na niya ako gusto? Na hindi nga pala talaga ako yung babaeng gugustuhin niya. Tell me right now." Nanginginig na yung boses ko habang unti unti na ring hindi pumapalagay ang atmospera between the conversation of us.

"Just confess because the time will come and you'll regret it anyway. Di bale nang siya ang mangonsensya kaysa ikaw." She patted my head and hugged me that tight.

Paano ko ba sasabihin? Kailan ko ba dapat sabihin? Kailan ba yung tamang panahon na dapat kong ipasigawan na mahal ko siya? Na gusto ko siya? That he is my ideal man. He is but how?

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ORION'S POV

What a great morning pero may isang taong sisira dahil sa pag-harang niya sa sikat ng araw na siya na nga lang ang nag-aalis ng kapangitan ng ugali niya. Sino pa ba? Edi si Dominique.

"What do you need?" I asked her irritated.

"Ano na? Ano nang nangyayari?" Nakapamewang niyang saad.

"Bakit ba atat na atat ka ha?!" Iritado kong saad dahil sa ilang beses na niyang pagpapa-madali sa akin.

"Aba, I did do your financial states of matter tapos hindi mo gagawin yung napagkasunduan natin ha? Ginagago mo ba ako, Orion? Ha?! Sabihin mo." Maotoridad niyang saad.

Ako pa ang nang-gago ngayon? Kailan ba ako nang-gago? Ginagago ko yung sarili kong nararamdaman, yun lang yun. Tsk tsk.

"Edi bakit hindi ikaw ang magpaka-lalaki sa atin tapos ako mag-demand sa iyo? Can you just wait?! Tanggalin ko iyang pwetan mo nang hindi ka na maging atat katulad ng tambutso ng sasakyan."

Tinaboy taboy ko na siya palabas ng apartment dahil naiinis lang ako at baka masapak ko pa siya dahil sa sobra niyang ka-atatan. Nakakainis, hindi biro yung ginagawa kong pagpigil sa nararamdaman ko na para din sa ikaka-ayos ng buhay ng pamilya ko sa Sorsogon.

And this makes my life sucks. Lalo pa na ngayon na hindi ko mawari pero alam ko sa sarili ko na umaayon na si Koa as what Dominique expected it. That make me hard to do it because the better she concise that feelings the more na hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Kung ano ba yung dapat kong tingnan na dapat tama.

Pumunta ako sa bathroom at doon naligo, rumaragasa ang lamig ng tubig na umaagos galing sa shower, I felt more anxious, when the time will come na makikita ko yung galit ni Koa sa akin because of what I had done to her.

"I'll protect you at any cost, Koa." Mariin kong saad habang nagpapatuloy pa rin ang pag-labas ng tubig galing sa shower. "I'll do everything no matter what happen. If you want it or not, I'll be your shield in the case of hurting you and apologizing you." I turn off the shower and wore my bathrobe.

"I love you." I smiled when the sun hits on my face directly. "And I do really mean it this time around, Koa. I am sure about that hehehe."

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I was on my way to their house when I saw her looking anxious maybe dahil sa home works na pinapagawa sa amin kagabi. Actually it's not home work, like a friendly professor reminder about sa magiging lesson namin today.

She finally noticed me and crossed the road, nasa labas kasi ako ng village nila tapos may kalsada roon. She was crossing to it when a car was running that fast and I covered her. That car almost hit my ass that close to the both of us pero hindi ko alam kung ano pa ang sumunod na nangyari dahil yakap yakap ko sa bisig ko si Koa.

"You okay, Koa?" I asked her.

"Yeah." She hugged me that tight. "Ikaw? Okay ka lang ba?"

"I am, di baleng ako ang masaktan kaysa ikaw." Tinayo ko siya at doon nakita ko yung kotseng halos sumagasa sa amin.

Nandoon ito, nawalan siguro ng kontrol at sumalpok sa isang poste malapit sa gate ng village nila kaya dali dali kaming lumayo roon ni Koa at inayos ko yung nagusot niyang uniform.

"Sure ka bang okay ka lang?"

"Stop being concern if I wasn't the girl you liked." She said it without hesitation kaya nagulat ako. He left my hand empty at saka siya sumakay ng tricycle.

Little do you know, you're the one I was describing to, Koa. You're the one I'm referring to. You are Koa.

Next chapter ahead. Enjoy reading!