Pure Tears. Pure Love. Pure Pain.

Chapter Thirty Nine

"Bucky I can't marry you," you whispered, as he looked into your eyes.

"Why not?"

"Because I can't,"

"That's not a reason,"

You sighed, running your hands through his hair and making it all fluffy. His eyes glistened as you shook your head, and you felt your heart drop in your chest as his face fell.

"Give me a genuine reason why,"

"Bucky," you said as he let go of your waist, looking away from you. You stood still, unsure what to do now. "We can't get married, you know what?"

He scoffed, "Why the fuck not?"

"Because, everything's still complicated right now," he laughed, "I'm not making excuses, but we can't just go and get married right now,"

"I'm not saying right now," he said, still facing away from you. "But soon, I love you so why wait,"

You studied his face, knowing it was killing him that you wouldn't respond. "I'm not ready Bucky," you said quietly, "We only just got back together, It's only just been a year since we first met. And, Bucky don't make me marry you this early,"

"Fine,"

"Please,"

"I said it was fine," he told you, "Its whatever, I'll clean this up, you just go. I'll catch up with you later,"

You grabbed his hand, squeezing it gently. "Please don't be mad," you asked him, silently pleading with your eyes. "This is all unexpected. I love you okay," m

"I love you too," he kissed you quickly, before blowing out some of the candles. "Meet later?"

You nodded, "I have drinks with the girls but we'll meet up after okay. I won't stay late," he kissed your cheek as you left the gym.

Once in the elevator you let out a breath you had been holding in. What the fuck had just happened?

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Until drinks you spent the time in your room. You had chosen a strapless black dress to go out in, and pulled your hair back into a ponytail. Wanda and Nat met you downstairs, Nat was wearing a black halter neck dress and Wanda was wearing a dark red off the shoulder dress.

"We look hot," Nat said as you all climbed into your car, "Shame we're all taken,"

You laughed quietly, and Wanda looked at you as you did so. "Bucky asked me to marry him," you told them, Nat slammed the brakes on her car as you did.

"He did what?" Wanda asked.

"Yeah, out of the blue," you told them, finally feeling the weight on your chest lift as you finally were able to talk to someone about it. "Out of nowhere, it was weird,"

Wanda and Nat exchanged a noticeable glance. "What did you say?" Nat asked you.

You hesitated, "No,"

"I can't believe he proposed," Nat said as she parked out front of the bar, "Was he mad when you said no?"

"I think maybe he was yeah," you said, "But I tried to explain why it was a bad idea. I mean you agree with me right? Saying no. That was best?"

Wanda nodded, "Yeah, hon, of course. We'll always back you up," you smiled, "Okay come on let's go get drunk,"

You were too many shots, glasses of champagne and wine in to remember your own name. Nat and Wanda were giggling as you took another shot of tequila, and slammed the glass down on the table.

"I should've said yes to Bucky," you slurred, causing Nat and Wanda to fall into a fit of giggles. "Ooh I need a martini, who wants martinis?"

"I'll have a martini with extra vodka," Nat said loudly, "waiter martini vodka, lots of them,"

Wanda waved around twenty dollars, "Keep em coming,"

You laughed as you sipped a third martini, Nat was telling you both about Steve discovering Adele while at the airport and you couldn't stop laughing.

"Sorry to interrupt," a man's voice said from behind you, a tall dark haired man stood smirking at you. "I was wondering if I could buy you a drink?"

"Oh we have loads sorry," you replied, sipping your martini.

He smiled, "How about your numbers? So I can buy you a drink some other time then?" you looked at Nat and Wanda, who slowly put down their glasses. "No?"

"I'm sorry," Wanda said, "No I'm in a pretty serious relationship."

"Me too," Nat added.

The man looked at you. "So can I have your numbers or am I too late?"

"Sorry no," you responded, "I'm also accounted for, I have a husband." Nat almost choked. "I mean a boyfriend, my Bucky. Um fiancée, no he's not. Is he?"

"I think it's time to call Steve," Nat said slowly, looking around for her purse.

You knocked the phone out her hand, "But it's so early," seeing the time on her phone you gasped. "Oh no, I said I'd meet Bucky, my Bucky,"

"When?"

"After drinks, but it's already tomorrow, today is tomorrow," you repeated, "Call Steve, call Bucky. Someone call Bucky,"

You fumbled in your bag for your phone, seeing missed calls and messages from Bucky.

Buck <3
Are you okay?
How's drinks?
Shall I pick you up?
Respond whenever I'm just with Steve
You okay? It's almost 1
It's 2am
Hey should I come get you
Going to bed, don't be home late
Worried about you
It's 4.30 should I come get you?

You
Pick me up and let's do something stupid

When Bucky arrived at the bar he saw you asleep at the table with Nat and Wanda who were frantically texting Vision and Steve. "Is she okay?" he asked, moving the hair from your face, instant worry crashing over him.

"She will be," Nat told him, as Bucky gently awoke you. "Hey Bucky, between us, warn me and Wanda before you randomly propose to her okay?"

Bucky sighed as you started to wake up, "She told you about that huh?"

Wanda nodded, as Bucky helped you up, holding your purse for you. You said goodbye as Bucky helped you to his car, and when you sat down inside you started to giggle as Bucky fussed over you. Making sure you were okay.

"Hey," you whispered, placing your hand on his cheek. "Let's get married,"

"What?"

"Let's get married," you said loudly, Bucky laughed. "Find a church or something, let's get married!"

Bucky turned off the engine on his car. "Y/n you don't want to get married, what is this about?" he asked you, genuine worry etched across his face as he spoke to you.

"I wanna marry you," you said, "it just took me rejecting your proposal to marry you. I know it sounds fucked up okay, but it's true,"

He shook his head as you tried to turn the engine of his car on. "James Barnes I swear you're the only man I want as my husband, and I want it right now,"

"Tomorrow?"

"Now is the perfect time for a marriage Bucky,"

"You're drunk,"

"So?"

"What if you wake up in the morning and regret this," he asked you, although a small smile began to appear on his face.

You kissed his cheek, "Believe me, if I'm with you I'll regret nothing,"

"Then to hell with it let's get married,"

Authors Note: told you I would update this before Christmas 😌