𝙴𝙽𝙴𝙼𝙸𝙴𝚂 𝚃𝙾 𝙻𝙾𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚂 𝚇 𝚂𝚝𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚁𝚘𝚐𝚎𝚛𝚜 ✔️

𝙰𝙻𝙾𝙽𝙴

Standing on the rooftop I continue looking over the city that never sleeps as the sun slowly begins to rise. Clutching my stomach I get the worst cramping sensation. "Ahh shit." I mutter leaning downwards lowering myself to the ground.

Even now my own body is punishing me for my failure. Why? Why is this happening!? Why is everything so fucked up?

"Screw you world! You hear me! SCREW YOU!!!!" I scream the last part at the top of my lungs, collapsing my head into my arms, bringing my knees up to support them. "Screw it all... screw everyone... I'm so done...You hear me... I'm done." I ramble on to myself as the tears flow freely down my cheeks. I stay where I am for who knows how long before I finally muster up the strength to head back down to reality.

Walking into the communal area everyone is dotted about the place interacting in their own conversations, then as soon as I walk in they all stop.

"Y/N want a coffee?" Bucky offers while pouring his own. "Umm yeah sure." I accept walking over to join him and few others.

"So y/n you fancy going shopping later? I could do with some new sweaters?" Nat offers giving a warm smile. I knew she was only asking to try help keep me occupied.

"Oh yeah. Sure. Why not." I accept taking a small sip of my coffee, wincing slightly at the sharp pain in my stomach. "Awesome, say lunchtime?"

"Yeah sure." Standing up I quickly finish my coffee deciding to head back to the room. As I get to the doorway a large figure comes in, bumping into me slightly.

"Oh sorry." I mumble keeping my head down.

"Y/N..." looking up I see it's Steve. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry about the results-"

"Why would you care? Why would you care about anything that happens to me?" I retort harshness in my voice.

"Oh come on y/n you know I care, it's just-"

"Just what!? Huh? Come on then explain yourself!" I begin raising my voice catching the attention of the others. "Explain to me how you apparently care! You never have cared Steve! Never! And even if you did care then you'd have been there with the others... but you weren't were you!? Even your girlfriend who by the way is just the best was there to support me! Do you have any idea what I went through!? DO YOU!? No I didn't think so... so stop with the lies and stay the hell away from me!"

Without letting him even respond I storm out the room heading straight for the living quarters.

It's easy y/n, walk away... get to the room, pack your case and leave... get the the room, pack your case and leave... get to the room, pack your case- leave? Leave my family... leave my friends... leave Steve... they don't need you, heck they don't even want you. It's the best for everyone.

Getting to my room I hesitate before opening the door. Heading to my draws I begin tipping out the contents of them onto my bed, bending down and looking underneath my bed for my suitcase dragging it out and placing it on the bed. I begin throwing my belongings into the case, not caring how crumpled up my clothing is. Looking down on myself I hesitate a moment before pulling Steve's sweater over my head and throwing it onto his bed.

I won't be needing this anymore.

Once enough is inside my case I seal it quickly clattering it to the ground. Quickly I head to the bathroom so I can grab my necessary toiletries. That's when I hear the door click open followed by a quite slam.

Oh you've got to be kidding me...

Continuing to grab my stuff I get another shooting pain in my stomach. "Ahh." I wince as I clutch on tight dropping my belongings.