𝙴𝙽𝙴𝙼𝙸𝙴𝚂 𝚃𝙾 𝙻𝙾𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚂 𝚇 𝚂𝚝𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚁𝚘𝚐𝚎𝚛𝚜 ✔️

𝚃𝙰𝙻𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝚁𝙾𝚄𝙶𝙷

Laying there in the arms of Steve, feeling content in this moment nothing else mattered, but when asked the question of what it was that I wanted my mind was running through a hundred different scenarios.

"Hmmm......well....." trailing my sentence off I bury my head once more into his chest, completely bypassing Steve's concerned expression on his face.

"Sweetheart?" Lifting my head to focus back on Steve I give a small smile, shrugging. "All I know is that I want you Steve. Until I know what the hell is going on with my body, I'm not ready to determine what this is, I just need to know I've got you... I only want you..."

"You've got me sweetheart... I'll be whatever you want me to be..." wrapping my hands around his neck I pull Steve in, kissing him passionately. Pulling back slightly I rest my forehead on his, my eyes closed feeling content in this moment.

"Thank you..." settling back down into the bed Steve wraps his strong arms around me, holding me close to him as we both begin to drift off to sleep. Listening to the sound of his steady heartbeat it soothed me to know that no matter what happens next, I've got Steve by my side.

The next morning I woke up early, it was only 5am. Rolling over slightly I can see Steve sleeping peacefully on his stomach hugging his pillow. Seeing him there, so peacefully, just makes me even more sure this is what I want. Laying back down I toss and turn a little, unable to get back to sleep. Not wanting to wake Steve I quietly get out of the bed. Grabbing his sweater from the floor, throwing it over my pyjamas and grabbing my sneakers, I quietly sneak out of the room.

Walking through the very still asleep tower I head up to my usual place. Walking across the rooftop terrace climbing up the ladders I get to the highest point of the tower. The only place where I really can be without interruption. Going to lay down on the hard rooftop beneath me I rest my head on the palms of my hand, looking up to the musky sky above. It had just clocked 5:15am and the sun had begun to make it's ascent into the sky. Inhaling deeply I take in the crisp cool air savoring the moment alone.

"So this is where you come to hide?" Startling me I quickly push myself up shooting my eyes across the rooftop. "S-steve? When did you-"

"I heard the bedroom door go." Walking over to me Steve lowers himself down sitting next to me, wrapping his arm around me he pulls me close to him. "So, what's going on?"

Dropping my head I let out a deep sigh. "My whole life nothing has been easy... With my dad making that serum to being trapped with Hydra all those years..." Taking a shaky breath I close my eyes briefly, my eyes slightly burning at the tears forming.

"Being in and out of ice too was just such a mess, but after gaining my freedom again and joining S.H.I.E.L.D I thought yeah okay... This will do. I thought I had no family left and I knew I didn't age so I figured going solo as an undercover agent would be the best option for me... Then you came along and changed everything."

"Me?"

"Yeah... think about it Steve, if you hadn't stormed my mission the way you did then none of this would be happening right now. If you hadn't showed up that day I'd still be all alone but you... you saved me Steve. Saved me from a lifetime of loneliness and sadness." Feeling my eyes begin to well up with tears, a single drop escapes my face.  Wiping it away quickly, I sniff, turning my face to face Steve.

"Hey sweetheart, don't cry, it's okay..." gently Steve strokes his thumb on my cheek. "I'm just scared Steve... I don't let people in like this, I haven't for quite some time..."

"Well it's not like how it used to be... you've got me, no matter what y/n."

"How do you know that Steve? What if something happens? What if I never find a cure? W-what if you hate me again? I just-" Being to stutter on my words, loose tears falling down my face.