Made For Me

Chapter 20

Penelope's POV

It was Tuesday and time for work. Jamie and I took a shower together then got dressed.

Jamie wore a navy work suit and I put on a peach dress.

I went to the kitchen and looked through the fridge.

"Penelope, we don't have time to make breakfast. We'll just pick something up on the way."

I sighed and followed him outside. We got in the car and he drove us to work. He was so quiet yet it sent me so many signs.

His hands on the steering wheel looking at traffic. I know I might be reaching but he doesn't notice me anymore.

Yes he loves me but does he know what I'm capable of? I can be sexy and independent. How hard can it be? Any woman surely doesn't need a man's support.

But it's comforting... but in my eyes it seems degrading. I wish I knew why? I love Jamie and he loves me. Yet I feel the need to disobey him.

Do make him mad. To make him furious. So he will punish me. Why am I so slutty for him?

I shouldn't care... but I do.

We got coffee and donuts and headed to work. Once at work I said hello to Midori and went to my office.

Miss Bryson wasn't in her office for some reason. I sent some of Miss Bryson's emails and talked to some people for partnerships.

An hour had passed and Miss Bryson's office door opened. She was here. I got up immediately and greeted her.

"Good morning Miss Bryson."

"Finally back I see. I need you to go with Midori to another lab downtown. Research the facility and forward it to me." She said, handing me a paper with an address.

"Yes Ma'am."

He walked out to find Midori. For some reason everything seems weird. She was acting like that day never happened. She must have a crush on me or something.

I found Midori and we both went in her car. On the way there Midori seemed intrigued about me and Jamie's relationship.

"Do you guys do bdsm?"

"Uhhhh Midori, I don't know what that is."

"Look it up."

I took out my phone and typed it in.

"Woah... I guess we do..."

She laughed loudly and I did too. But something inside me wanted me to tell her everything. She was one of my best friends and I know I can trust her.

"I guess Jamie is my dominant. He controls my life."

"Is that a good thing?" She asked, sounding concerned.

"Sometimes. He can be over possessive."

"How so?"

"Like when I went to visit my brother he got mad and got abusive... verbally... and physically."

After I said that she stopped the car. She took a deep breath and continued to drive.

"Penelope, if you feel unsafe I can help you. You shouldn't be abused."

"N-no I love him. It's just how he is. He loves me."

"Alright..." she said, almost unconvinced.

We talked about better things until we got to the place. It was boring but after 5 hours we got it done. Whole presentation, meetings, and more.

We drove back to work and I emailed Miss Bryson the work. Midori asked me to meet up at a club at night and I agreed. It's been forever since I had a girls night.