Little Roger Barnes

New Yorks hidden Alleys

TW: drugs, smoking, self-harm and ED

You made your way out of the compound doing your best to avoid cameras and people. Once outside you began to run into the street. You found an alley and walked into it.

Free at last you thought knowing your parents wouldn't be looking for you in a sketchy alley like that. You walked down the empty alleyway until seeing a man selling drugs. By now you knew your parents would have noticed your disappearance and come looking for you.

'How much?' You asked really catching the dealer off guard.

'W-what your not even a teen,' the dealer replied.

'So?' You replied.

'Whatever kid, a fifty will do.' He said still a little taken aback from your young age.

You handed him the money as he handed you your drugs.

The man then began to walk away handing you a single cigarette, 'a gift for the road kid,' he said then walking away.

You shoved the drugs into your pocket and looked around. After, searching the alley for a while you found a lighter on the ground to light the cigarette. You then continued to smoke in the alley until you see a fight begin.

Even knowing you'd be fine you knew better then to get caught in a fight between two grown men. So you left the alley.

Walking down the street smoking still, you noticed your Dad behind you.

'Shit,' you mumbled trying to work out what to do with your lighted cigarette. You threw it on the ground and put it out now picking up your pace knowing your Dad had surely noticed you.

You tried to run but you didn't get far before getting cornered by your Aunt Natasha and parents.

Steve picked you up and took you quickly back to compound. As you entered you heard your Papa say, 'Jarvis run a cold bath.'

Well you knew what your punishment was. Your parents took you to your bedroom and tge lecture began.

'Not acceptable Y/N, I mean what the heck was going through your mind! Your seven it isn't even legal for you to be roaming the streets by yourself.' Your Papa began.

Next thing you know your Papa had picked you up again.

'Get in the bath,' he said pointing to it.
'You are not getting punished lightly for this.'

You got into the ice cold water at least 5 degrees cooler than your normal temperature.

Your parents continued to yell at you but you were zoned out not listening at all.

Eventually they stopped and you could see the upset in both your parents eyes. You started to feel really bad and nervously you began to bite down on the inside of your mouth. Bucky noticed but didn't say anything.

For about 10 minutes no one said anything. You feeling really bad knew you couldn't do this anymore and vowed to quit the act and behave.
You then began to break the silence, 'I'm sorry,' you said now even more glad your parents hadn't caught you smoking.

'We know Y/N but you have to understand that you can't act this way.' Your Dad said to you.

'Yes, Daddy,' you replied.

'Alright get out.' Steve said handing you a towel.

He then went and got you clean clothes and told you to dry off.

Your parents left the room and went next door. You dried off then freaking as you realised you had no hoodies left.

Realising your only option at this point was the kiddie make up you had you rumaged through the draw for it.

Quickly finding it you began to cover your cuts and scars. Deciding you didn't do an entirely terrible job so you stopped. You knew it was obviously covering something but you hoped no one would notice provided you were careful.

You walked into your parents room and looked at them. You had gotten so distracted about having no hoodies you had completely forgotten about the drugs left inside your pocket.

You were biting the inside of your mouth again from not having long sleeves.

'Come sit,' your dad said to you.
You sat in the small space between your parents and they hugged you. Then Natasha walked in, 'hey, can I talk to Y/N she asked.'

'Sure thing,' Bucky said as he gestured for you to go with Nat.

You walked out confused as to why she wanted to talk to you.

'What's going on Y/N, this isn't you something has been bothering you.' Natasha said looking right into your big blue eyes.

'Nothing Aunt Nat, I just grew up a little.' You said knowing you weren't actually going tell you the truth.

'Alright,' she said after a minute she knew you were lying but you didn't look like you wanted to tell her anything. You walked back into your bedroom and sat onto the bed picking up the book you had been waiting to start reading.

Your stomach grumbled you had barely any food in your system from the last two days. Your parents after a long day had forgotten you hadn't eaten all day. You continued reading your book ignoring your stomach.

It was then at 5:30pm just before dinner when you realised you still had the drugs. What the heck were you supposed to do with them.

You weren't going to tell your parents or any of the Avengers for that matter.

You couldn't leave the house again not after you had vowed to yourself to behave. You went to your wet hoodie still on the floor of your bathroom and took them out of your pocket. You looked at them no clue as to what to do. 

Then you heard one of your parents coming and quickly shoved the packets in your trousers pocket.

'Oh, hey daddy.' You said nervously looking at Bucky.

'Dinners ready Y/N let's go eat. With that you went down the stairs to eat.

You slowly ate dinner thinking over everything then when you were finished excusing yourself to the bathroom for your usual routine.

As you threw up you decided not to get rid of your drugs and rather hide them. You hid them behind your toilet for when you needed them.

Soon your parents came in instructing you to go to sleep. You got ready for bed and the went to sleep.