This Was A Mistake | Mattheo Riddle X Reader

chapter 5

Maya
It'd been about a week or two since I got back home. I started working on myself and my worth.

I started eating the right stuff again and doing a lot of things by myself which I for the first time enjoyed. I learned that I was gonna have to work hard for the things I want.

The bruises on my inner thighs were finally going away because I used bruising paste from the Weasley twins that they'd given me ages ago. They're amazing they are.

Even though I had to come clean quick about all of this to certain people, it got easier each time.

The bruises stopped hurting as much. My eyeballs started to clear up as well.

edit: that was supposed to be eyebags😭

I set a new mindset for myself.

I realized I was too nice to people and I hated that. I'm disgusted in myself for the way I acted and letting people walk all over me like that.

As the weeks passed by, I started to finally see results on myself. Physically and mentally.

I looked better than I had in a really long time. It's like I was a different person now. I am.

I hate Draco Malfoy. Fuck that prick. He can die for all I care now. I was gonna get my revenge soon.

He shattered my heart into pieces and it's my fault. I let myself fall for him. Fall for a douchebag.

I'm definitely still heartbroken about it because everything he did hit me and I realized I deserved better.

My biggest fear now was I don't know if I'll ever find love again. The biggest thing I learned was that I had trust issues after him. It's hard to believe I'll love it ever be loved again, put my life in someone's hands again.

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After I ate, I went back upstairs to shower. After I showered, I did my hair and decided to read a book off of my dusty, untouched bookshelf.

"Lucinda!" I hollered from my room. An elf rushed in and came up to me, "Yes, Miss Esmeray?" Lucy bowed. "Could you dust off my bookshelf while I read? You don't have to right now, but whenever you can." I said kindly.

Lucinda was my favorite elf that we had in the manor out of all the other elves.

'This Was A Mistake' the book said. It looked interesting so I decided to read it. I don't even know why I had it on my bookshelf.

It was about a girl who like me, got her heart broken and got her revenge. I'm intrigued.

A few hours go by, I'm finished reading the book. Wow. She is pretty badass. I strive to be like her now.

I've always had something similar pushed deep down into me, covering it up with my 'sweet' and 'pitiful' self.

I put the book back on the nicely dusted shelf and left my room. I heard my name being called by my parents to come downstairs.

"Mother. Father." I nodded my head at them as I sat on the black couch across them crossing my arms. "As you know, our Christmas party is tomorrow." My father said. "Right." I nodded.

I started to get excited because I loved our Christmas party's more than anything.

"Just wanted to remind you. You may go back to your room." He said.

I sat up, "Actually, I was wondering how I was pulled out of school the week we had our o.w.l exams?" I said to both of my parents curiously.

They both looked at each other and sighed, "Dumbledore suggested we bring you home early after what happened...and said it was permissible to take your exams after Christmas break." My mum said. "Hm, okay." I shrugged and left their sight.