This Was A Mistake | Mattheo Riddle X Reader

chapter 21

some songs i recommend u playing this chapter

idfc - blackbear
the night we met - lord huron
deja vu - olivia rodrigo

Maya
My feelings for Mattheo grew stronger everyday and I craved him even more. Even after what he said a few weeks ago.

We haven't talked much since. I guess he did take what I said seriously.

"If I did nothing—then why me?" I spat, eyes brimming with tears.

"I don't know Amaya. I'm trying to figure it out myself." He sighed unable to meet my eyes.

I knew if we had a real relationship, he'd treat me so much more than just in public. He'd protect me, he'd respect me, he knew how to treat a woman.

Could it be all that bad that I liked him? My enemy? What would my parents say about this? Did I really care what they thought at this point? No matter what they'd hate anybody I probably dated. Except Draco.

They hated Adrian so much for no reason. They were friends with his family, but they hated him because of me.

Daphne and I hadn't spoken to Pansy at all since that night. It's been a few weeks and we hadn't seen her popping into our dorm.

We let Blaise know about what happened. He was in complete shock. So unlike her. She's usually more straight forward than I am.

We'd checked up on Enzo and he kept claiming he was fine. I wasn't so sure about it. He was acting so strange with us and still hadn't spoken to Pansy.

Meredith had also disappeared on us with Draco. We'd barely seen her around accept when she was with Draco.

It was now just me and Daphne.

"Look who showed up." Daphne said sarcastically.

"I just came to grab my stuff. Then..speak with Enzo."

"Finally. Fucking shady of you to disappear for weeks and then have the urge to talk to him." I mumbled loud enough.

"I know. It was really shitty of me." She said as she took out her clothes carelessly.

"Shitty of you?? Is that all you have to fucking say?!" I stood up and spat at her.

"I needed time too!"

Mattheo
I couldn't sleep.

I couldn't get her out of my head. I was supposed to hate her with a burning passion. This wasn't how it was supposed to go.

I feel like such an idiot for taking into this deal with her.

I've been in denial this whole time about my feelings for her. I just can't do it anymore.

Maya
I was tired of feeling like this. Tired of caring so much about what she did.

"You know I love you both. I want to come back here."

"Pansy I love you too, but I'd like to go to sleep and not talk about this right now. Maybe tomorrow." Daphne said.

"Okay.." she said as she zipped up her bag.

"I'm not mad at you anymore Pans. Just please make things right." I said as she opened the door. She nodded and smiled at me.

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A week later everything had been so much better.

Pansy talked everything out with everyone. She came out. I was proud of her. But I was still hurt that she kept it away this long.