Hushed Lullabies

LII

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May 8, 2021, 1:03 p.m.

Thank you for hearing me out

1:11 p.m.

May choice ba ako? Kulang na lang banggain mo ako ng kotse mo

Kasi di mo ako pinapakinggan. Tapos tatakas ka na naman ulit pagkatapos ng nangyari

Isla, andali-daling tanggalin ako sa buhay mo, ano? Ganito rin dati. Ayos naman usapan natin, tapos kapag nalilipasan na ng ilang araw, parang ibang Isla na naman kaharap ko

Kahit siguro sabihin ko na lahat ng salita, hindi ka maniniwala sa akin. Hindi ko na alam kung anong sasabihin ko, Isla

Fuck. Why am I so crazy about you?

Ipaintindi mo kasi sa akin

Isla

Bakit? Nakakafrustrate ka kasi intindihin. Hindi ko alam kung saan mo pinangkukuha mga sinasabi mo. You just tell me that you like me, and expect me to understand it fully, and to like you too

Paano nangyari yon? We had a one night stand on college, tapos hindi na tayo nagkita ng ilang taon. You told me you liked me since college, how? Mas understandable kung si Serena, eh

You told me you were waiting for the right time, and when you were ready, I had a boyfriend. Umurong ka ulit. Kasalanan ko ba? Your name was all I ever know, Azriel. You’re like an open book, with all the hidden chapters

You liked me since college. Okay, anong gagawin ko? Are you not getting it, Azriel?

I don’t

Nung umamin ka, inexpect mo ba na pareho tayo ng nararamdaman? I’ve been single for a long time. All I can think after you confessed was how I can be sure you’re not spitting pranks and lies. Or I’m going to doubt you all the time.

I was too fast?

Yes.

We’ve got to take it slow, Azriel. God, we have a lifetime. Bakit ba sobrang nagmamadali ka?

Why did you shut me down?

Because I was confused. We were acting like in a relationship, when we’re not. You said you like me but never gives me assurance

Stop

Ano?

Stop saying that I like you, Isla

See? Hindi na naman kita maintindihan ngayon. You’re saying you don’t like me? Then what’s the point of all these?

That’s the truth? You don’t like me, so you’re just messing with me?

1:40 p.m.

Salamat sa paglinaw.

1:45 p.m.

I can’t argue with you with text. Can you open up the door?

Kung nagsalita ka kanina, kanina pa sana tayo nagkaintindihan, Isla

I know what’s going in your beautiful mind now. I can elaborate my feelings for you clearly and thoroughly, if you want.

Give us this chance, Isla. I won’t be saying that I liked you since college anymore. It’s true, but it may seem unrealistic to you.

I fell in love with you deeply. Now. When I saw you on that sea of crowds, mouthing the lyrics of songs I’ve written. Nakita kita agad, kasi ikaw ang hinahanap ko. Disregarding our college years. Disregarding our first night. Disregarding our first meeting.

Hindi ko maipaintindi sa ‘yo kasi kahit ako, hindi ko maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko sa iyo, Isla

So allow me to show you, at least?

2:39 p.m.

Whatever