(1-17-22) Well it's a new year. And just in 17 days so many things have changed. We finally have a label on what we are. Something that I've wanted for a while. But recently. It's been feeling kinda foggy. That what we have is being covered by something. Or by someone. Her. He loves her. And I love him. And if you're wondering how she feels. Don't ask me. He and I have no idea how she feels. It's like were stuck in this weird love triangle.
But recently there has been a few changes. After her rocky past with dating. She found a boyfriend. The girl who told us she was done with boys and done with dating. You see the the thing you're supposed to do in these situations is be proud of someone for finding a partner. However that is not the case. You would think that someone would understand how feelings work. How repeating one thing over and over, giving people false hope, and leading them on. Can affect multiple people. How ones actions and words can implode. And create new issues and problems. That no one has the time or patience to deal with
Right now not only at I spiraling. I'm spiraling with anger. Which is a lot worse than sadness or worry. Because my emotions are a lot more targeted. I never meant for this to become targeted. So I will write another part. You may choose to read it. It will also help explain a few things.
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I'm spiraling
Non-FictionHeavy trigger warning. These pieces are things that I've written during times of pure mania. Where I began to unravel and spiral. Many discuss feelings of loneliness. And suggestive content. Please do not read if any of this triggers you.
